yeah, as the title suggest,.. i'm feeling fuckingly fucked up. well, i really feel very mentally, emotionally and physically drained out already. i just feel like locking up myself at home. sometimes, you thought by treating someone sincere, that person would appreciate it.. and by being kind and all, things in your life would be better. that's whole lot of a fucking bullshit. perhaps i was too impatient, but good karma never seems to meant for me...... i admit i was expecting something good to happen to me,.. this someone would be here to talk to me, to comfort me when i'm going through all these shits. but expectations sucks. fuck it seriously. do i deserve such things? did my character, the things that i do made me a worthless creature to deserve better things, better treatment? at least, there's one thing for sure, my best friend would always be very patient towards me. but life has been a fucking bitch. what's bad?
family? checked.
friends? checked.
love? checked.
when life's already so bad, when i can't get myself to catch a wink last night till like 6 in the morning, somebody has to wake me up at 10 to pack my fucking room. pleaseeee be understanding. what's wrong with a messy room? fuck it seriously la. & i can't even lock myself up for the day. i was forced to get out to visit my grandma.. plus some fucking birthday party. fuck fuckk fuckkk. & yeah, m going to ditch clubbing. clubbing aint as fun as what i thought it would be. so much so for everything... forget about it.