Tiffyang

i'm fucking pissed now, cox the whole house is fucking stuffy, there isn't anything nice to eat at home, my stomach is feeling not well, my laptop keyboard must go haywire at this time, i cannot install the fucking frontpage thing into my com, & the list goes on.

last but not least, you disgust me. & i fucking hate you.

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i don know why, but my heart hurts like fuck now. how i wish i'm on the plane now, flying off to somewhere. forget abt it, i'll just stay strong for now.

i skipped my jogging routines these few days, cox i was too lazy & the cold weather was rather nice to sleep in. moreover, i'm really tired. so just now when i was all ready to go for a jog, it must rain. how nice. so i went back home again & had my dinner instead. haven't been eating really well these few days. bcox i don know what to eat plus my appetite wasn't very good and can only fit in one meal per day. so it's somehow a good sign, bcos i wont put on unnecessary weight even if i skip jogging. hahahahaha. massive update now, since my night is kinda bored.

i know, i'm prolly the last one to do an update for cny. but it's better late than never yea. so for the whole two weeks, it was visiting,gambling & eating. even the youngest cousin i have sit ard to gamble. ha! & every weekend was visiting diff dim sum restaurant with the family!(my favourite!ha.)& now i'm missing all the har gao & siew mai. plus i really love the steam chicken feet! i can never get enough of that!

so every year, it's a trend that my family & my god-family will have a lunch date on the second day of cny! this year, we decided to have a change of place & went to some clubhouse for dim sum instead of the usual dragon gate restaurant. the food there was not that bad, but still i prefer old hongkong or crystal jade! & my god-ma have always been a very loving and supporting lady to me , i really feel appreciated for all the love & care she showered on me throughout these years. (:

it was never-ending good food, gambling, yada yada for the rest of the days. & one thing for sure, i'll end up gambling the night away either with my cousins or my aunts! & now, i'm starting to miss those goodies, gamblings, gatherings & my cousin's high-pitched "banluck"! haha.

so it was valentine's day two weeks back. i spent this day with my family instead of a valentine. so we had family dinner at a restaurant in haw par villa! this time it's my uncle's treat cox he strike lottery just the week after my dad striked! the food there was alright only, & the service sucks, like totally. they take like four hours to serve a eight-course dinner? all of us became kinda restless while waiting. so my cousins & me walked like many rounds through the museum they had in the restuarant! mum spotted her granny's kitchen along the way. ha.

hit the club with my cousins & his friends after dinns. intial plan was zouk/phuture, but bcox of some event, phuture was full house & we couldn't get in . so we changed plans & went dbl o instead. this time round, i drank more. from redbull vodka > ribena vodka > snowball > choya martini. the choya martini was way too sour, & i kinda miss ribena vodka now, since ribena is my favourite childhood drink. as usual, the company was great for the night! but , the dancefloor is fucking crowded/stuffy,& we can't stop sweating. plus the music wasn't that nice either. so within two hours, we decided to go for supper instead. cabbed home after supper & i KO-ed right after my bath.

& last sat was chilling-out session with love after her first paper! though it's a short meet-up, i enjoyed every jokes we cracked & the sharing sessions with each other. (: i hope the goodies did help her de-stress, at least a little? ha. so after dinner & a little shopping, we ended up at starbucks for a drink & more chats. we seems to choose the wrong drink like always whenever we are there, cox our drink will end up not very nice.& that day was kinda sinful cox we brought home two pints of ice-cream each. ha. but the summer berries & cream is really nice thou it's too sweet for me. (less than half a tub left now. :( ) &&&&&& i can't wait to meet up tmr! love, remember what you promise me huh. hope my whinings wont hurt your ears. :P

i bought this snack today cox i feel like eating it. but now, the craving is not there alr. lol. but trust me, it taste really good with chilli sauce. alright, this is indeed a very long post. shall stop now cox it's time for some cucumber mask. & i need to peeeee.

p/s. another picture post will be up again, very soon.

m in school now, and my stomach is growling non-stop. what should i eat for breakfast later? hmm, hotcakes or? so i'm in the com lab now,& as usual i'm totally distracted from my assignments. i must get down to serious job soon. no more slacking sessions manz. i have so many things to blog about, but... laziness had gotten over me. so two weeks later, i'm like free forever. can't believe i graduate already.......................... ah. so should i apply to be a animal keeper in the zoo?

blueberry vodka for the night..... but it didn't seems to help at all. i wanna club so much now, i wanna booze so much now, i wanna have a hardcore clubbing night to ease everything that's feeling so pain & numb in me. i don know why i can feel this way even though i know everything is impossible. do you really have such a great impact on me? i don want fate to play with me anymore. fuck fate. i wanna let go, but i can't bear to... and i can't for now.. sigh, why like that.. love, i wanna lie on your shoulder on fri. :(

I'm very hungry now but i don know what to eat. I don have any cravings, nor any idea what i should eat. I only ate the stupid fried mee just now. Even the haagen daaaaaz ice-cream in the freezer don't tempt me. Ah, tell me, what should i eat? Guess I should just blast music, & doze off on the bed. But my fucking mp3 went faulty again & my stomach is crooooooooooking like hell.

emo emo emo emo emo emo emo la.

i choose to drown myself in lies.

yes, m silly, stupid and dumb.

i know you aint worth it, totally aint worth it.

but can i really stop the trigger,

& control it with my bare hands?

i doubt so, cox i'm locked down for now.

& i don't deny, i still looked out of the small window.

i still care, my heart still hurts.

i'll still try to get out, i hope i can.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

love's in the air today.

but the good thing about being single is......
i can still go gogo-gaga over beach boys by the beach. haha! (:

& i love tanned guys like louis koo.

古惑仔 rawkz \m/ don't they?

gave school a miss today, again. cox i seriously don feel like going to sch with a toothache. went to get mc, & napped for a few hours since i didn't really manage to get a good rest for the past few days. so now, i'm stucked onto the tv. but there's nothing nice to watch, & i'm getting bored at home. i want to get my ass out!! but where to go? & who's free for me? i want to club! or maybe a midnight movie will do. sigh. bored bored bored. i wanna booze leh. i kinda miss mahjong, but......... sigh, enough of complaining. should i jog today? yes? no? someone ask me out pleaseeeeeeeeee.

my lower stretch of teeth is in great pain now. :( i don know what causes this but i suspect it's the growth of my wisdom tooth. oh well, why this problem hit me so early. i thought the wisdom tooth will only grow at a later age? so now, i can't really eat in peace & take salty/sweet stuffs as and when i like. but still, i heck everything & eat. that's why i'm in pain now. awwww. & now, i'm at home watching tv cox i overslept & m too lazy to turn up in school. but, i'm a harrrpy girl still cox i get to eat mac hotcakes for breakfast just now! it's thurs today! means weekends is near! i'm thinking of trimming/dyeing/highlighting my hair during the weekends. shall take a rest now before it's time for facial. till then, mr teeth, please get well soon.

She said, " Can't help but wait,"

The grass is always greener on the other side. How true is this? I see you living a good life, you see me living a better life. Well, human is never contented with whatever things they have. It's three now. I'm very tired, but i can't get to bed. That's bad. i shall stop killing my brain cells now & cuddle my bolster.

it was a fabolous friday with vonvon! she came over to my crib first & bought me my fav cny snack!(: ha! had our dinns at crystal jade, & we're like chatting non-stop, sharing stuffs & what not. i know she won't forsake me forever, cos i won't either. (: ha. wanted to shop but i don know why those shops closed exceptionally early on that day. & we are like "huh?" so we ended up at starbucks, having drinks & surfing the net on von's lappy. manage to catch the last train home, & now, i'm missing fridays like this. :(

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sat was lunch over at some dim sum restaurant, & went visiting over at my aunt's place. gambled, eat ( like again!) & i love the mee siam my uncle cook. ha! stayed over at reb's house for the night.

on sunday, daddykins gave a treat to the gum's family cox he strike 4D two weeks ago! we went for buffet at zhou's kitchen. well, i can't say the food is very nice, but at least, it's so much better than sakura! & everyone leave the restaurant with a big bloated stomach. (: mahjong with my aunt, barry & sam after dinner. i lose abit, sigh, no luck la. :(

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so today was a free off-day from school. how i wish, everyday's like this. at least, i don have to wake up early & travel to the boring school. went jogging today & i sweat alot! so jogging in drizzles isn't a bad thing afterall. alright, shall look for something to do now to kill the boring night.

tell me, why things happen this way?

tiffany, wake up, wake up & wake up.

what the fuck manz.

so much so i wanted to blog a post with pictures, i don have the mood to. i feel like i'm walking like a dead corpse everyday. so what if there's a smile? so what if you know that looking on the bright side will bring you better light? sometimes, things don come by easy. the hard & cruel fact that hit you down hard, & leaving you all alone to stand. the determination, the faith i continue to have, the tineeee hope that i hold on, isn't easy to come. that took me days, weeks, months to build. but still, i find it so hard to face it. guess i only have myself to blame. let me say it for once, i hate my life now.

the more you hope for something,
the more you wouldn't get it.
the best thing in the world will only appear when you least expect, like always.
i have everything i wanted,
but i don have everything that i need.

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oh my, i miss vonvon! i really hate it when we move separate ways after secondary school. cox, that's when we start spending lesser time with each other. but i know we wont forget each other despite the busy schedules. ha! but i still demand a meet-up before you start your CTs battle!

alright, i miss the loud r&b music. my social life is dying. bring me out please.

my name is tiffany, but my loved ones calls me tiffy. i love jogging, & the really powerful trance remix. & i have a best friend forever and ever! <3

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