Tiffyang

i think i failed miserably in my plan for sleeping early this week. cos i just can't! my bio clock is f-ing screwed up. so now, i'm alone sitting on this chair, with no one around & no one in sight. That made me think deep about certain issues.. this afternoon, i was texting love, & she mentioned abt something called, karma. i do believe in karma, & m really scared of bad karma falling on me. but sometimes, do we have a choice for treating people in certain ways? i doubt so. we can't be pleasing every single people around us. & one more thing, if we don protect ourselves, who will be here to protect us? i got this paranoid feeling in me about ____ that i know i will take months or maybe years to overcome. that's bcos i failed to protect myself, & remind myself (all the time) to choose the right way to handle the situation, & not be a fool. i'll move on, & find my way out. it's a matter of time only... haha, & now, i shall drop this issue.

so today is the eve of a holiday for everyone! well, i haven't had any plans yet except for the dim sum lunch i will have with my grandparents & mummylove later! i miss all the har gao & siew mai already. hahaha. no plans for the long weekend, & i'm quite sad that the malacca trip was cancelled last minute due to don know what reason. :-( plus i'll be home alone for the whole day on friday. cos my folks are going to batam! peepo, ask me out if you are free, k? hahaha. aye, shall get back to my dramas before turning in. nights!

p/s do you still wanna talk to me? aww.

i'm so tired now. but m controlling myself not to nap, so i can sleep earlier tonight. (hope so.) so today was some housework day alone. this is when i realised i really hate doing those chores. i think i aint some housewife material. i love to throw my things around, my bedroom is forever messy, dad had to nag,... mum had to nag even more. haha! & i love to sleep & bum around at home instead. interesting lifestyle huh. but at least doing these chores, made me less guilty when papa give me allowance. at the same time, he can relax more during weekends. ah, so yea, i should just bear with it until i got some constructive stuffs to do. it's drama mama time again! will decorate this space with more interesting stuffs soon!

so much so for making a pact with myself that i'll sleep early this week. it's four now, & i'm still awake. maybe it's bcos i slept way too much just now. but m really tired, that my eyes could hardly open. & now, i couldn't sleep :( welllllll, m quite tempted to eat hotcakes now. ahh, shall see later after my morning jog. so...... i miss sun-tanning (minus the sunburnt). cos i love the bronze colour i have on my shoulder now........ & when's boooozing session? malacca, go or don go? can't wait for more fruitful daysssssss. & chilll, tiffy.

so yea, a pictureless entry again cos practically i'm too lazy to take any pictures. haha. so thurs was a couch-potato day with ade over at my crib, & today was meeting up with love at town for some dinns/coffee at tcc. oh manz, they served really nice aglio olio! with fresh scallops and prawns! totally love the garlic.. but the pepper is too spicy for my taste buds. the chocolate raspberry frappe was good too. taste like some blackforest cake, but yeah, it spells fattening & there goes my diet plan. lol. well, í promise myself i will be more determined next week! haha. last but not least, best of all, it's the company. (: besides a diet plan, i think i should make an effort to sleep early everyday. late nights are making me looking real shag & i don like the shopping eyebags! must start next week tiffy! alright, it's time for one episode of drama and bed time. tmr is another couch potato session with ade! nights people.

honestly speaking, i do miss going to school. cos it's so much better than slacking at home & doing nothing,.. well, i don wanna stop my education level at ite, but for now, i really don know where to go. i'm thinking of taking private. maybe mdis or sim, but seriously now, i don know which is good & what's the best choice so that i wouldn't waste money & time. i check out everything online, but still i am lost for choices. suggestions? hmm. so, i've been doing morning jogs, plus hiking at bukit timah hill with mummylove. i love the very steep slope up. haha! plus morning breakfast at timah food centre is thumbs up. now i miss the food there already. lol, shall stop thinking abt food now.

& now that i thought it through, we don get a partner bcos we need a companion... it's bcos we know that person could guide you through everything (in a sense yea). well, i kinda miss chatting with.... haha. but i know clearly where i should stand for now... yeah, i should just keep away from everything that starts with a l and ends with a e.

breath slow................ i shall wait and see.

hahaha, can you spot me?so, sunburnt really sucks, thou one of my favourite hobby was to bum by the beach & to sun-tan. but... i don really fancy the super red cheeeks one day after. haha. these few days, weather was hot like f, & that explains why i have four big fat ulcers in my mouth. this really suck alot, cos i can't eat properly. & one thing to sulk about, is the sch-reopening for the polys. this means i'll have lesser time to meet up with love & ade. vonvon is sick, hope you get well soon yea! we can meet up for a simple dinns soon. (: i kinda miss singing already, & it's only a few days back we went for k session. && the other thing that i yearn for, is to hit the club, oh manz, the mega loud music, plus some boozing session. but well, guess this plan wont work until everyone is free. i hope soon. haha. & these few days, i've been exercising my determination for this hardcore diet plan i have....... hahahahahaha! this means, i will bid goodbye to all the good food. emo.

i've got to say no to chocolates (i'm so gonna miss m&ms :( ), gummy sweets, mac, supper, oily fried food, not too much meat, chips, cold iced water,.... & the list goes on for the most fattening food in the whole wide world. &&&& say yes to more lemon water, vegetables, soupy sliced fish noodles (my fav!haha), tau huey, less sugar tau huey water, soupy kway tiao fish noodles,.... & a healthier choice of food.

this really suck big time, cos.... i can't eat as and when i like, whatever i like. :( but still, i wont restrict myself like some crazy aneroxia girl. i can't resist temptations you see, haha. it's five in the morning now... i'm waiting for six so i can go for my morning jog! alright, shall bum around until time's up. nighty.

p/s the guitar strings..... i wonder how it feels to see you play in person. haha. stop tiffy. lol

sentosa for sun-tanning with vonvon & ade today. we had fun spotting people,munching snacks, drinking lotsa water, looking for a toilet for more than 5 times, walking ard vivo looking for a nice place for dinns, having thai food, talking crap, cam-whoring, teasing each other, and putting cold hands on each other's ultra hot body,... etc.. & so now, i look like a roasted pig, red all over my face & back. didn't expect to get tanned like this, since mr sun wasn't that scorching today. but overall, i did enjoy myself, despite of what you call pms. haha. i don have the peektures yet, shall grab and post some nice ones soon. i haven't been sleeping for more than an hour since yesterday, & m not really tired now. superwoman or wad. haha. another day out tmr, m lovin' continuous outings like this. shall get some rest first, or not i'll do some robodance tmr.

it's four plus in the morning now..........., & i'm still awake. haha. oh manz, i slept as early as 8 just now, & yeah, i can't get back to sleep now. i don intend to either. haha! m going for a morning jog later. i am a little hungry now..... m going to heat up the bak kut teh in the fridge later. granny's good stuff you know. i am soooooo bored now, so m typing rubbish on this space. haha, i must keep my post entries going yea, or else, nobody's gonna read this space anymore. :( so, m lovin' things in my life now. as in... i thought my way through, at least, for now. haha. so yay! people, ask me out k. i wanna have fun. i wanna hit the club, real soooooon. please.

so yesterday night/morning, i was on the phone with a friend... & yeap, he pretty much gave me some enlightenment. i felt a tad better after the chat. think i've been too stubborn towards certain stuffs. well, there bound to be pros and cons. guess, most importantly, you know what you're doing is right. i think i should remember i always have the right to choose, & be demanding to a certain extent. prolly i've been too kind all these while, it's time to change. but maybe for the time being, i'm staying away from the love scene. i'm gonna be more selective. after all these years, i'm definitely stronger than what i expect. so now it's time to improve myself, kick my ass off, & start partying again! no more emo posts, no more why it's always me that's going through these shit stuffs. & i can't wait for thurs! hope mr sun is kind enough. i want sentosa. :P

i failed terribly in life.

i am useless.

guessishouldjuststopthinkingfornow.

i wanted to blog so much about what i have been doing these few days................. but, after staring at the lappy for 20 mins, nothing comes out of me. guess, i'll leave that for another day. well, higher expectations brings greater disappointment. i just have to face the fact that nothing will happen... and i MUST stop expecting.. once again, you & you & you robbed every single bit of my confidence... tell me now, whose's fault? i only have myself to blame. tiffy, you're very dumb to commit the same mistake over and over again...... ok, another emo post. hope i'll make this the very last one. i'm ready to get drunk to kill on sat. \m/

today was the release of last-semester results. i'm glad that i passed every single module, esp HR. not fantastic results, but at least i managed to tide through & get a full-cert. (: & so, for the past threee weeks, i've been a really hardcore slacker. my bio clock totally screwed up & i hate the sun. everyday was eating only one meal, facing the laptop(i got really sick of all those hongkong tv dramas), doing shit stuffs, jogging, sleeping..... (and the list goes on...) & yeah, i stayed at home for almost a week already, i think i'm becoming a stone. haven been feeling good either, more of mentally. well, fuck it seriously. so now, i choose not to procrastinate and do a picture spam. haha.

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it was sissy's 21st a month back! ( happy 21 birthday sissy! you're like a sister to me. it's really nice to have you in the house. all the supper,gossiping,shopping...... thou you're really busy recently, i hope we can hang out/club together real soon! (: ) two days before her actual day, we surprised her at home with a cake & a silver bracelet! the mango mousse cake from bakerzin was the sex manzxzxzx. i can't get enough of the mousse! maybe that's bcox i'm always a fruit lover for every single sweet stuffs i eat. haha. the very next day, mummylove gave her a birthday treat at tung lok signatures. and yes! dim sum again. the food was fabolous, esp the mini egg tarts. i can gobble down three! but mummy stopped me. hahahahaha. retail therapy for the rest of the day, before sissy leave for msia.

mummylove's birthday on the 15. a simple lunch at crystal jade for dim sum (again, haha). i bought mumsy a chomel bracelet, & m glad that she love it. she wear it every now and then when she goes out. (: canele's cakes for her & my papa. & now, i got really sick of canele cakes already. i'm not a fan of cakes anyway. mumsy have always been the most important person in my life, i really can't imagine my life without her. thou, yea at times, she really nag alot but at the same time, she always shower me with tender loving care! happy birthday mummy! all i want is you to be healthy always. love you.

dim sum and kbox with vonvon about a week back. & now, i'm missing those singing sessions at kbox. before k-ing, we went for dim sum at turf city, they are having a 50% promotion. but the drink is a killer, seriously. for the price, we can buy like a few bottles already. haha. but overall, it's an enjoyable day with love! except for the part, where i got migrain & we had to leave early for home. that really sucked. but.... well, i can't wait to meet up again! (: for sun-tanning, shopping...... before the vacation ends. haha.

last weekend was staying over at the C sister's house. but i didn't really spend alot of time with them cox they are forever so busy, ( doing proj, swimming lessons, piano lessons, tuition...) still, it was a greaaaaat time conversing with them! haha. at least, i got my feets out of my house.

ok. i shall stop my picture spam for now. time to........ turn mouldy again. or maybe i should start to plan/figure out how i should go about booking a slot for the stupid BTT.

p/s sometimes i just hope that someone would be here for me,..... no... i should just stop thinking and expecting......

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