Friday, March 20, 2009<3sometimes.........
so... i'm at home now on a fri night. well, i hate staying at home (being a couch potato) but at the same time, i'm very lazy to drag my fat feets out. come to think of it, i've been home alone for the whole day. & i hardly speak. as in really talk, & i really feel like a mute speaker. this made me feel that i really don have anyone to talk to. (putting vonvon & family aside, since they're always here for me) sometimes, i feel really tired....... maintaining a positive attitude towards everything. do you know it's very tiring? i feel useless sometimes, my life seems to revolve around nothing. all i could see is black and white. i know sometimes we can't have the best out of everything... but....... sometimes i would rather give up some things that i have now, for something else that can really perks me up? i don know what can perk me up... but yea.. all i do is sleeeeeep and sleeeep and sleeeeeep. my world turned upside down.. okkkkkkkz. i shall stop.
Monday, March 16, 2009<3i thought i was...
I thought Í've gotten over you. But this is so not true when......... Please give me the strength to pull through.. I don't want things to remain like this.
Friday, March 13, 2009<3quick one & go...
good morning people. just came back from my jog & i feel kinda refreshed now! haven't been jogging for the longest time (close to three weeks) cox of exams & stormy weathers. m happy that my stamina remains,.... & the passion for jogging is still as strong. :P & so, i unofficially graduated two days back. yay! i don have to wake up early & endure those long train rides alone anymore. however, i would miss those see-you-at-bishan days with grace & valent. & i dyed/highlight my hair yesterday. the colour seems kinda bright on me... love is very sweeeet to wait for me. haha. too bad she had tuition lessons with kiddoooos & we can only have dinns at the coffeeshop. can't wait to k next wed! (: ha. my fav mac hotcakes for breakkkkfast now!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009<3red-bull night.
red bull > raisins bread > r&b remix tracks > stack and stack of notes
time checked & it's 2.33 am. two cans of red bull already. hope it helps to keep me awake. tmr's the firsssst paper already....... bless me & my friends ok. ^^v shall get back to my notes already. endure tiffy.
Sunday, March 08, 2009<3a little too not over you..
my throat feel damn blooooooody pain & dry now. (bcox i ate too much heaty food, hahahaha) plus the weather is everchanging. sunny > rainy > sunny. i think i'll fall sick soon. so i'm slightly distracted now, & i don feel like mugging, but i promise i will psycho myself to mug like mad laterrrrr cox lao niang wanna pass! ha. no flying colours but at least, a pass can. can't wait for mid-week! cox i'll be free from everything. & i can go shopping, sun-baking, chilling out, clubbing,....... (the list goes on..) don think i will commit myself to any job during the forever-holiday yet. i shall rest and be a slacker. \m/ tonight is a longgggggg night again....................
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i am a little too not over you........
don't remind me the fact, & your bad.
cox the cruel fact in me is that, i still miss you.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009<3TGIF!
last fri was movie & dinns with love. caught "he's just not that into you" (a movie we promise to watch together. ha!) overall the movie was not bad, maybe bcox somehow you can relate yourself to either one of the characters. but one thing FOR SURE, i'm damn paranoid to get into a relationship after watching the movie, thou i did thot of C. but, yea m afraid of broken marriage & unfaithfulness,... ha. so after movie, went for a little shopping. then dinns at ding tai fung. it's my first time there! & i totally fell in love with the fried rice & xiao long baos. :P the red date drink was yummy too. aww, how i wish i can have either one of that, now. & i don't know why recently shops at town closed sooooo early, like at 9.30? i mean, where's late night shopping manz. singapore's night life is dying. =/ so we headed home rather early since love's tired, cox of mugging till early dawn the previous night.
something bad happened that night too & love stayed up to comfort me. well, i'm seriously touched cox she stayed by me even when she's tired and know that things that happened were getting ridiculous. ohhhh, where to find such a best friend. teehee. but i found one! (: sigh well, you totally aint worth it, but....... alright, i shall stop.
somehow, i'm craving for canele's berrries pie, mac strawberry sundae & hot tom yum soup now. sian, all so sinfulllllll. fat fat fat. my throat isn't feeeeeling ok either, shall get some honey & yea, it's drama time. i promise i will start mugging tmr. ha!
<3my heart ache as the night gets colder.
time checked : 3.50am
-yawns- i just finished bits and pieces of my frontpage. like finally. haha, yay! ^^v though it's not fantastic, but i tried my best already. & i love those new songs i just downloaded! it kept me company through the cold & lonely night. well, i shall stop all these emo-ing. ha. but..... my heart really ache now. sigh, why like that again...... i shall go to bed now with my broken heart. :( < / 3
Monday, March 02, 2009<3call me lazy bones.
so i'm heading out soon, not to school but with mummy. i decided to forgo the deadline, & hand in tmr. i stayed up till 6 in the morning, & i'm only 3/4 done. (caffeine from coffee, chocolates do helps.) well, half my time was spent on frontpage since yesterday. sooooo i'm gonna take a break, & have fun with mummy. ha, i love mummy cox she makes me feel loved. not forgetting vonvon too! (: for staying by my side, checking on me here and there to make sure i'm fine.
& valent, don stresssss yourself too much. remember to save your work ok? lol. text me if you need help (:
shall go prepare now. i wanna spend money spend money spend money today.
Sunday, March 01, 2009<3fuck frontpage.
omggggggg. i'm over at valent's house now doing the frontpage thing, but nothing comes out of my mind. no inspiration, no ideas, no creativity & whatever you can think of. both of us are rather pissed with the program alr. my cousin asked me out for dinns, but bcox of this, i cannot tag along. :((((( i don wanna stay home, cox i'll think alot & non-stop. what the fuck. seriously.
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so i just finished my dinns & my popo's home-cooked green bean soup. oh, how much i miss that. but i miss popo even more. haven't been visiting her. :( & now, i feel like i'm gonna fall sick anytime soon. feeling cold on the outside & hot inside. &&& (i know rather random for now) but i really miss korea's everland & lotte world. how i wish i am there now. i need the super fast eagle roller coaster & the 180 degrees viking ship. that will be damn shiokkkkkkkk. ok, shall get back to frontpage asap.
