Wednesday, February 25, 2009<3the love-hate feeling towards you.
blueberry vodka for the night..... but it didn't seems to help at all. i wanna club so much now, i wanna booze so much now, i wanna have a hardcore clubbing night to ease everything that's feeling so pain & numb in me. i don know why i can feel this way even though i know everything is impossible. do you really have such a great impact on me? i don want fate to play with me anymore. fuck fate. i wanna let go, but i can't bear to... and i can't for now.. sigh, why like that.. love, i wanna lie on your shoulder on fri. :(