so much so i wanted to blog a post with pictures, i don have the mood to. i feel like i'm walking like a dead corpse everyday. so what if there's a smile? so what if you know that looking on the bright side will bring you better light? sometimes, things don come by easy. the hard & cruel fact that hit you down hard, & leaving you all alone to stand. the determination, the faith i continue to have, the tineeee hope that i hold on, isn't easy to come. that took me days, weeks, months to build. but still, i find it so hard to face it. guess i only have myself to blame. let me say it for once, i hate my life now.