well,there's this huge question mark in my mind.
i question myself for almost everything.
from family to friends, studies to relationship.
& what i truly wanted.
however up to this second, i can't give myself an answer which puts my heart at ease.
i feel trapped.
i have everything i wanted, but i also lack everything that i ever wanted.
the same old thing, seems to be on repetitive mode.
my heart can't seems to handle the blow if history were to repeat again.
i can't accept the cruel fact. i mean,why me?
the fear, the pain, the courage, the confidence.
all these months, i have been trying to improve myself ;
however,i can't seems to erase the fear & raise the confidence.
i'll still try all means to avoid every heartbreaks & hide the fear.
i put myself to test, & i failed myself.
i aint strong enough,yet.
someone enlighten me,please.
make my heart die, will you?
i question myself for almost everything.
from family to friends, studies to relationship.
& what i truly wanted.
however up to this second, i can't give myself an answer which puts my heart at ease.
i feel trapped.
i have everything i wanted, but i also lack everything that i ever wanted.
the same old thing, seems to be on repetitive mode.
my heart can't seems to handle the blow if history were to repeat again.
i can't accept the cruel fact. i mean,why me?
the fear, the pain, the courage, the confidence.
all these months, i have been trying to improve myself ;
however,i can't seems to erase the fear & raise the confidence.
i'll still try all means to avoid every heartbreaks & hide the fear.
i put myself to test, & i failed myself.
i aint strong enough,yet.
someone enlighten me,please.
make my heart die, will you?