After settling down for two days,I am back to blog.
I was very busy for the past week.I stayed away from home for a week.Well,I didn't run away from home.I went to accompany my auntie.From home to the hospital to her last breath.
JENNY SAM SOW FONG ( 14/08/1958 --- 22/03/2007 )
Five days.This is how long my auntie has left us.All of us really miss her alot.She is an aunt who cares alot for the family.Like what my uncle say,she is always a peacemaker.That's very very true.She love gathering.I will never forget the CNY,x'mas and genting trips.When she wasn't sick,she would definitely organise genting trips when it comes to june and dec holidays.The whole family would actually drive up.But there was a few times where we rent a mini van.That was less tiring for the drivers.We talk,we laugh,we chat together in the van on the way up to genting.It's uber fun!She will always request for a conneting room so that the family can move around between two bedrooms.I really missed those times.
Sometimes I teared when I see her suffer.But I really admire her courage and strength to fight her illness.She fought for four years.Despite the pain,she still care for us and joke with us.For the few days before she left us,I stayed by her side to take care of her.I feed her,massage for her,talk to her,bath for her and change for her.What I do is not alot.It's actually the least alr.I just want my aunt to feel comfortable and happy.I know my uncle have to work and my cousin,Rachael,have to study the next day,so I don mind staying there to help out and to look after her.As I have to wake up at 4am in the morning everyday to take turns to look after her,she knows that I wouldn't have enough sleep.She would ask me to rest.Her words really touched my heart.I still remember when she was so drowsy and it was 5 plus in the morning,she held my hand and told me she wanted to eat Char Kway Teow and Prawn noodles.That was her favourite.At that point of time,how I wish I can buy for her to eat.Even she can't eat,she can smell it too.There was a time where she touched me and say,"No more Sum Yee alr."I teared.I don want her to leave us so soon.But at the same time,she held onto me and told me that,"Tiffany,it's so torturing."My heart bleed.I can never understand her pain.
Before she was admitted into the hospital,she held onto to me and say,"Tiffany,when Sum Yee is not here,help me to take good care of Rachael."I gave her my promise.Perhaps Rachael might not like me now because of some misunderstanding.It's alright because I am always here for her if she were to meet with any problems.She can always look for her friends for the time being because it's always good that she can look for some friends to talk to.Just wanna let her know that all her aunties,uncles and cousins is always there for her.
The family really love Sum Yee alot.We missed her alot.Though financially we can't help her much,we always give her moral support.On the last day of the funeral,I can't bear to let her coffin go,I wanted to hold onto the coffin.But..I know I have to let her go.Maybe this is a relaese for her because she don have to suffer anymore and she will be enjoying life in heaven.
SUM YEE,can you hear me?I am Tiffany!I misssss you alottttt!In fact,the whole family missed you alot!We know you miss us as much as we miss you.Enjoy ya life in heaven!You will always be in my heart.I hope to meet you in heaven.
Sum Yee,I will learn from you.I will learn to be strong to hang on and never give up in whatever I do.Last but not least,Sum Yee,I love you.Bless Uncle David,Rachael and the family.I know you will.Muacks.
Flames to dust.
Lovers to friends.
Why do all good things come to an end?