Tiffyang

Siao liao!
One more week to the long-awaited O-levels!
It's my Chinese Paper tmr.
May GOD bless me.xD

Was on the phone with ade and lara a while ago.
Lara want to watch 'The Prestige' again.
She jio-ed me,I jio-ed ade.lols.
It's either tmr or tues.
Yea!MOVIE!

Im rather busy for the past few days.
It's either studying,slacking or on the phone.
Stress,stress and more stress!
Damn it!

It's my Dad's birthday yesterday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY HANDSOME DADDY!
Dad,may you stay healthy and handsome always.
You are always the best dad in my heart.x)

Lunched over at Jack's Place ytd.
Had Dory Fillet.
Yea,it's always that whenever I stepped into Jack's Place.
Headed back home to study after lunch while Dad and Mum have a world of their own.
Two sweethearts.xD

Gave Dad a surprise when he came home in the night.
Bought a cake and a card for him.xD
Mum said he's happy!
x)

Im suffering from appetite loss for these two days.
Nothing seems to be appetising for me.
See if I would take my dinner later.
Perhaps two to three spoonful of wad Mum had packed for me.

How could I live without you?-this is a question that I would ask myself in the past.
However...
I realised that I can live without you.
I gave up waiting,I gave you up it's because I knew even if I choose to wait for you...
There will be no happy ending.
The feeling is not there anymore.
Everything has gone.
I am on my own,you're on your own.

Lack of updates.
Yea,so here I am now.xD

Though O-levels is just around the corner,I still spend quality time with my family and girlfriends.

First of all,I would like to thank Mr Macho for accompanying me till the wee hours when I am really down.Accompanying me and sending me home till my doorstep do touched my heart.You are my good BRAther.Thanks xian for all the money-also-cannot-buy msg-es.It's really sweet.Thanks.BRAther and Xian,I love you two.xD

Secondly,I want to thank my girlfriends for showing me concern after knowing what had actually happened.Girlfriends,I miss shopping,crapping and slacking with you guys.xD.MUACKS.CATCH UP AFTER THE O-LEVELS!

Lastly,I would like to thank Jun Xin for being by my side when I really need a listening ear.xD

I know you wouldn't read my blog.
But my blog is the only place where I can write out my true feelings.
Yea,I do feel hurt when you told me everything in your msg-es.
However,your msg-es are not going to affect me.
After spending a few days thinking,guess we are only fated to be friends.
Not good friends,not best friends,but friends.
Wish you all the best in ur ORD and of course,wish you success in getting her heart.
Do cherish her.
Take care.xD

With Love,
Bei

AHHHH!
I seriously need a router.
I can't be using people's network all the time.
It's really damn fucked up when I can't use the internet in the middle of the night.
Damn it!

Had supper with Mum at Bukit Timah last night.
Prata and Roti John.
It's not as nice as what I had expected.
But it's okays.
I just love my MUMMY loads!xD

After supper,went to CCK to fetch my Dad home.
He was celebrating Deepavali with some of his Indian friends.
And he got a BIRTHDAY surprise from his friends.
*awwww*That's sweet.
Dad was happy!
That ended him having cake on his hair and body.
His friends smash his face onto the cake.-lols.

Headed home.
Mum screamed upon opening the bedroom door.
Guess what?
There was a BIG cockroach.-lmaO!
Dad,our saviour killed the cockroach and he saved Mummy and my day.xD
I slept at ard one.

Had my god-mother birthday celebration at Taka Crystal Jade today.
Yea,a feast again.x)
After lunch,walked ard Taka.
However,I didn't manage to get anything for myself.

After Taka,we went to queensway shopping centre to shop ard as Dad wanted a pair of sports shoe.
Mr Macho jio-ed me to study.
However,I didn't have my study materials with me.
Therefore,I didn't joined him in the end.
Shall jio-ed my BRAther to study again soon.xD

Dad fetched god-mother home after shopping.
Came home,my parents bathed and they are out at my grandma's house now.
Didn't joined them as I am really tired plus I am lazy!=X

awww,I know my blog is rather dry without pictures.
Too busy to take any pictures.
Shall post some pictures soon.
Sorry guys!-lmaO

Off to do my stuffs.
Take Care.xD

Is this an excuse?
If you don't have the heart to do it,just tell me straight.

Argh!
I am damn pissed with my com.
It's giving me problems.
I shall bring my com to its doc one day.xD-lmaO!

Had O-level phys/chem practical today.
Everything was rather fine.
Except for some parts.
But afterall,I knew I put in my very best.
So all the best to me.xD

Enjoy chatting moments with Mr Macho and sweeties in the AVA room.
Guess Mr Macho have to work a little harder on his art skills.=X

Had nice chats with both my sweeties for the past two days.
Yesterday with lara,today with ade.
I just love shopping,chatting and crapping with them.
I love craps,more craps and more craps.x)

Oh gosh!
I noticed that I have lots of things in my mind that I want to accomplish.
But I seriously do not have the time now.
*awwww*However,it's just a month more before everything ends.
So,shall tolerate.

I am such a lagger.
I give a miss to all the nice movies.
Damn it!
I wanna catch up!!!!!

Shall end my post for now.
BUSY TIME!

Actions speak louder than words.
I see no action.
But just words.
Unwilling words.

My life revolves around AI QING MO FA SHI,studies,sleeping,eating,chatting and myself.
Nothing else.

Boo!
I will just hope for the best!

Oh well,second post for the day.

It's exactly 10.34pm now and here I am typing out my post.
Time is passing by so slow.
I am bored,messy and down.
I am not being pessimistic but somehow thing aren't going right for me.
Not just once but many times.

Sometimes I do question myself,what have I really done wrong?
Or did I do things a little too little that is not enough?
All these thoughts are driving me crazy and Im tired.
Emotionally or physically tired?
I would say both.

I know that I would have to face many more setbacks to make me grow.
I would have to face everything bravely and positively.
I know.
I really do.
However,I simply just can't get things right.
The more I want to prove myself,the more I would mess things up.
Oh well,give me a break.
I just need someone that I can confide in.
I know who I want to confide in.
However,will that person be there?
Telling him Im sad,I need a listening ear,he would have the thinking that Im pessimistic.
Someone who is always down.
Someone who don't enjoy what she has.
Gosh!
Im tired.
Yea,this word appeared in the post many times.
Im really tired explaning things to people.

I am always the one at fault.
I am not right.

You had utterly disappointed me.

At this point of time,I feel that I am an absolute failure.
I doubt my character,I doubt myself.
Im just a failure.
No matter how hard I try,I am still a failure.
I don't practice what I preach.
Nobody truly knows how I feel.
Or shld I say,I don't even know what I am feeling.
I tried very hard.
I can raise my head up and say that I really tried many times.
But,why?
Can I ask why?
Why people just fail to see?
Yea,it's always my fault.
So many people said that.
The conclusion is clear.
It's my fault.
I am speechless.
I can't even confide someone that I really want to confide in.
Forget about it then.

Von,now that you're sick.
Do drink more water.xD
Take good care of yourself.=)

Ade,von & 4E1,good luck for your bio pratical tmr!=D

The weekend is gonna be over in a few hours time and it's mugging time tml!

Today is my family day.
Went to paternal grandma house after my tuition.
HAHA!Get to eat my fav fish porridge again!
Chatted with granny,uncle and aunt.
It has been a really long time since I last saw them.

Left granny's house at around 3.
Dad and Mum fetched me to poh poh's house while they headed to Jurong West to buy some stuffs.
I love gummy sweets!
Really missed Mini Toons gummies.
*awwww*
Shall purchase some when Im out.=)
Watched some TV programmes at granny's house.
I love AI QING MO FA SHI!
I want to buy the VCD!
But that shall be after my O-levels.
Gosh,can I just get rid of O-levels?
Dream on!-lmaO!

Ate fish porridge for dinner.
Yeah,AGAIN.
I just simply love it!-lols.
Took a nap.
Woke up and drank some soup.
BAK KUT TEH!
My favourite again!
Wo zhen you kou fu!lalaalalalalas..=)

Headed home at ard 7 plus as Dad has a wedding dinner to attend.
Was talking crap with my cousin just now.
They ask me if I koe wads SSLE?
You guys might be wondering,oh there's PSLE,wads SSLE?
It's Secondary School Leaving Examination.
How lame can they be?-lols.

Casey and Carmen is simply so CUTE.
Casey's fringe now is crooked.
She cut it herself!
Gosh!She is naughty but cute!
Love them loads!x)

I want longer nails,longer hair and a nicer figure!x)

I miss you.

Alright,I deleted my previous post.
There is nth troubling me I guess,perhaps I am just having a little mood swing.
Thanks von and xian for asking me if I am alright.xD

I will miss my secondary school life with wonderful people around me.
I will miss all my friends.
Their lame jokes,their laughter.
I am going to miss everything about my wonderful friends.
I will miss my sweeties.
I will miss my macho,my charming and my handsome.
Wondering who are they?
Mr macho is HOO TUN JIANG!He will forever be my good BRAther.
Don't hesitate to look for me if you ever need a listening ear.
Im always here for you.x)
Charming and handsome.
Woah,alot to mention because sheng/jiang&friends are all charming and handsome guys!-lols.
Though all are handsome and charming,the most handsome guy will be SHENG and the most charming guy will be ALEX!=)
Yeahs,my macho,my handsome,my charming.=)
STAY,sheng/jiang&friends,I love all of you loads!x)

A place in your heart.
Mister sweetheart.

I am kind of dumb for the past few days.
Not really myself.
I hate it when this kind of shit happened to me.
But this is not the end of the world.
Im fine.
Just so fine.xD

Alright,gonna get my ear piercing today.
Pierce,pierce and pierce.
This is wad Im looking forward to.=)

Graduation dinner tonight.
These four years have been a fufilling one for me.
Hua Yi is a place where I meet great peeps.
Like STAY,sheng/jiang&gang and many more friends.
I just can't live without them.
*awwwww*
How I am going to face lectures in future without peng xiang's evil laughter,classmates jokes,teachers' nagging...
This is gonna be hard.
But life is never easy I guess..-lols

Dad gave me 50 bucks for my own entertainment.
What a sweet papa he is!=)
Dad,I love you!
Guess Mummy was jealous!-lmaO!

Alright,I am not sure if you ever read my blog.
But I guess you didn't.
I am not as pessimistic as you can ever think.
I am still the cheerful girl with no worries..nothing..jus a brain full of thoughts to enjoy life..
I love my family and friends.
Perhaps I had disappointed you in one way or another.
But I really hoped that it was all a misunderstanding.
Hope everything will be cleared after my O-levels...
All I can do now is to wait..
Things might turn out good after the O-levels...
There is a chance it might not turn out good too..
But..like what I have said..Chances are to be given for miracles to happen..
So,let's wait and see..
I trust you and I mean my words.

Oh yeahs,I just can't stand some fucking bastard who loves to act as if he really cherish the past..
Oh gosh,get a life manz..
And fuck out of my blog!

Sheesh~
I am back to update.
Went back to sch today..
And I get to see all my friends again!
Simply love them loads.xD

Nth much really happened in sch today.
Just that I don't have the energy to talk much.-lmaO!
So I guess,I'm a little quiet?

Wasn't feeling well when the clock strikes 2pm.
Therefore,Mum came to fetch me home.
Reached home,ate some porridge,bathed and off I went for my nappy nap.=)

Yeah,chatted with Mum last night and told her that I wanted to join the hot yoga course after my O-levels.
Mum said it's not a bad idea afterall.
Shall search for a place that offers hot yoga lessons.=)
Adeline,wanna join me?-lolz.

If there is a time machine,I wished I could turn back time..
A wish..

However,it's my future that I am looking forward to.

*awww*
Didn't get to update for the past few days.
I am sick!Damn it!
Vomiting!Headache!Giddiness!x(

AHHHH!
Headache is back again.
Gonna rest now.
Shall update more when I am well.
Take care~

It's the weekends again.
Lalalalalalas~
Enjoyed myself with my family and friends yesterday.

Though it's a rather long day in sch yesterday,I enjoyed almost all my lessons.
Thanks Mdm Lye for her word of encouragement.=)
I will continue to work hard.xD

After school,took 172 home.
Bathed,dolled up and took 172 back to JP.
I am loving 172!-lmaO!

Took a train down to town with ade and von.
Meet up with lara at Forever 21.
Tried on a skirt and a blouse.
I am loving a skirt there.
It's unique and nice.
But,I am having too many jean skirts.
Mum asked me to stop buying jean skirts at the moment.x(

Accompanied ade and von to look for their clothes.
As for me,I am planning not to buy anything.
Just wear what I have at home.=)
Von bought a gown.
It looks nice on her.
She will be my gorgeous sweetie on that day!=)
(However,I am helping her to change the size later.She is feeling uncomfortable with her current size of the dress.)

Went to Cine for dinner after our shopping.
My head was so damn numb while walking.
This came all of a sudden.
Can't stand it.
It must be the migrain's business.

At ard 9,all of us decided to head home.
As for me,I went to meet up with my parents at Chinatown.
It's hazy yesterday.
Hate the weather.
But do we have a choice?
Sad to say,NO.x(

Dad and Mum was sweet yesterday.
They were holding each other hands,walking and smiling.
So sweet.=)
I love the both of them.xD

Supper time after walking around.
Dad have porridge while Mum have fish head bee hoon.
One and a half bbq chicken wings for me.
Dad and Mum shared the other half.-lols.

Headed home after supper.
I am a happy girl!
Lalalalalas..
Mister sweetheart.=)

Towning later.=)

HOME ALONE for me all night today.
I miss my papa,I miss my mama.I miss my sweeties.x(
Didn't join ade and von for shopping today.=(
But it's okay.
Shopping for us again tml!x)
More clothes,boots,heels and accesories.*bleahz*

School was fine for me today except for the EXAMS,EXAMS and more MOCK EXAMS.
Got back my report book.
Improvements!
I am happy.
But i believe I can do better than that.=)

I miss movies.
During the September holidays,it was one movie per week.
Now,because of the fucking O-levels,I missed so much nice movies.
x(

It's getting hazy nowadays.
Hey sweeties,do take good care of yourself.=)

Oh gosh,my post is so darn boring!
But who cares?
It's my blog.duhz.=)

Shopping and Family Night Outing tml.=)

Today is a tired and SICK day~!!
Called Mum to fetch me home halfway through the lessons.
I am having a TERRIBLE HEADACHE and nauseous feeling.
Hate it manz.
Perhaps it's because of the haze.

Went home.
Ate some porridege before I sleep through the day.
My head is still aching now.
*awwww*Can't stand it.

I miss shopping.
I miss the beach.
I miss chalet.
I miss outings with STAY,sheng/jiang&friends.

I want to enjoy life~~!!
I will gurantee myself that I will enjoy my life to the fullest after my O-levels.
I want night life!

I simply miss everything.

Last but not least,I miss you.
Though I can't see you clearly now,I know I will meet you one fine day.
xD

Alright,I put down the stone in my heart.In fact,I put it down long long time ago.
It doesn't make a difference anymore.No point telling me how much you cherish the friendship.
You indeed don't deserve to be my friend.
Jian Ming,you don't mean anything to me anymore.
I put you down long ago.
So don't think that you have hurt me alot and I am still living in sadness everday.
I am NOT.
In fact,I am happier.
I tore your letter.
I throw everything that is related to you.
It's not that I don't want to keep any memories.
I don't see the need to.
So,wish you and your gurl all the best once again.

Oh yeah,I have something to say.
From today onwards,I shall call myself BEI.
I had decided to call myself BEI as my family,relatives and friends tend to treat me as their BAOBEI.
This is what they told me.
That's why.
So,I shall announced myself as BEI,TIFF(my friends love to call me "thief",you know.-lols)
Oh,I am talking crap.-Damn it!

*awww*
Prom nite is coming and my sweeties are intending to shop for clothes.
As for me,guess I wouldn't be buying anything.
Let's see how first.-lols

My fringe is driving me a little crazy.Damn it!
But no choice,Mum and aunt asked me to let my fringe grow longer.
My fingernails too.
Because I am doing manicure and pedicure after the O's.xD
It's just one more month.
Shall let it grow,let it grow,let it grow.-lmaO

Nothing much recently and Im getting bored studying.
But of cos,I wouldn't give up.
Studies,studies and studies.
Fuck it!

Get a life manz.
GOODNESS!

Time seems to pass really fast when it comes to Sunday.
Nth much really happened today.
Went to granny's house for my favourite fish porridge.
Her fish porridge is really yummy!
I am loving it.xD

She is going to teach me how to cook after my exams.
A deal between us.x)

Went to view the showflats.
It's rather comfy.=)
It will only be ready in a few years time.
So.it's too early to say anything now.

Initially,I plan to study with ade and eug in the library.
However,I have to apologise to them that I can't make it in time to study with them.
-sorry.x(

I didn't carry out my plans to study with my friends these two days.
Yesterday it's Lara.
Today it's ade and eug.
This shall not happen again.

Had dinner at aunt's house.
Sha po fan.=)
*yummies*

Alright,I shall stop my post here.
Boring,isn't it?-lols.
Once again,happy children's day to all my loves.=)
Goodnight all~

Woah~Time really flies.
Saturday was over and here comes Sunday.

Today is a special day for children.=)
HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!
Muacks muacks!I love Carmen,Casey and my cousins!Hugs hugs!
Gonna get some sweets for them later.xD

After a day of stress and doubt,it's days of happiness for me yesterday and today.(I am still counting-lmaO!)
I am simply a lucky girl.xD

Accompanied ade to my aunt's salon yesterday.
Her hairstyle was rather fresh now.
Went for service after that.
Through this service,I get to know more about CHC's history.
It's an long and enduring journey for the church.
It's through perseverance of Pastor Kong together with his staffs and members that CHC is what it is now.
Cheers~

Ate MAC for dinner.
Tried out McSpicy.
Not bad except for it's spicy-ness.-lols.
We were FULL,FULL and FULL after the meal.

Travelled back to CCK after our meal at Changi.
I am dead beat.
However still manage to msg a little.
Hmmm~

I am glad,but that shall stays in my heart.=)

Received a good news from my parents today.
I am happy!
They bought a unit at The Centris.
Sounds famailiar?
Walked ard JP and you will know wads that through advertisement.
-lols.
Balcony in my room.-cool?I am excited!!
Viewing the showflat with my parents later.
I am lucky!

I have to admit that I am really lucky.That's wad I actually told my Mum just now.
Besides my parents being strict with me in the past,I tend to get what I want.
They are now more understanding towards me and I am also more understanding towards them.I have freedom now,I have everything I want.And now,I get to design my new bedroom.
*awww*I am excited!But still not sure if we will be staying in the old house or new house.
Anyway,it's still a long way to go.The Centris is not built yet.-lols.Mum say perhaps in a few years time.I love myself and I love my life.=)
Last but not least,I love my parents!
xD

Morning everyone~ =)
*awww*It's a Saturday and I am waking up so early.
Damn it!Can't I just forced myself to sleep longer?
I am rather relieved to see something,but is this a good thing or a bad thing?
I am not sure for that.
Really hope that I can be given a chance to seek confirmation.
Shall not think too much.x)

Hmm..I don't know what am I going to do later.
Let's see.Perhaps doing some work,hanging out with friends will be good enough for now.

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