TIFFY

2011-06-15T05:33:00.001+09:00

i manage to log in here again! i should start blogging here again.... awwww

2010-07-29T01:00:00.003+09:00

if anyone's still reading, shifted to tumblr.

http://tiffyang.tumblr.com (:

a short update.

2010-05-16T20:20:00.000+09:00

time flies and it's may now. in shatec for a month plus already, am pretty much getting used t everything like.. the need t wear jeans almost everyday? i really hate t wear jeans. but now, it's like a okay thing for me. life's really hectic, 4 projects, many progress tests coming up, and there's voluntary work for YOG. oh gawd, i really want some meme-quality time during the holidays. i can hardly have time for myself except for the weekends. am out almost every weekend, including this week just that i didn't stay out.. mummylove seems t be happy about the fact that she sees me at home. there's like tourism management progress test tmr, & i don have a single bit of motivation at all... but i will study. i will force myself t study. i don wanna screw this paper like how i screwed my technology paper. bless me!

alright, many things are bottled inside me & i can't seems t express everything in words. nah, i will just chuck everything aside for now. everything's gonna be fine at the end of the day. gonna start studying. i promise to update more interesting stuffs again the next time. (:

there's a need to party.

2010-04-17T16:01:00.001+09:00

it's a lazy saturday for me, yet again. so school had started for me, and am lucky that this week is a pretty slack week for me as most of my mentors are either on urgent leave or MC.. but am still mad tired... waking up early for lessons, & lessons end pretty late in the evening. but well, i prefer life like this, cos i am slacking no more. it's a new start for me.

so last weekend before sch starts, went town with my babygirls! it's been a really long time since we spend time like this, & we had alot of fun camwhoring, talking about make-up, chilling and all... haha, their company definitely made my weekend more enjoyable. can't wait t see them again. for sauning, chilling.... haha, too many stuffs t list out.

and so, my blog's really dead & i wonder who's still here reading it. well, i'll try t keep this space alive again. well, somehow i do miss blogging, miss people reading my blog & leaving lovely comments in my tagboard.. so friends, please drop by!

it's 4 now, and i am already thinking what to have for dinner. alot of cravings this week...... and i can't wait t hit the club! i really need to dance, to really relax myself w party people. gonna force my babygirls t club w me! and i miss my ite classmates, and jap friends. argh, havent been keeping in touch w them.... we had t gather! alright, peeepo have a nice weekend! (:

2010-03-04T15:33:00.000+09:00

haven't been blogging for the longest time.... well, it's just aint my routine already. but well, will still blog abit so that i can keep memories, & read back in time to come. life have been really really mundane, but am happy that school is starting soon for me in april! feeling nervous, yet excited.. and the next happy thing is, i finally got my license! (: haha, can drive on the road now! cant wait to drive my friends out! so many places to explore... alright, guess i shall be back t blog again soon!

i want things to be better,
but i know i just need to wait,
& not expect.
cos once i expect, everything's gone.

no matter what.....

2010-01-15T18:32:00.001+09:00

counting... things ended about 2 months already. m pretty relieved that it ended. but well, just feel like penning everything down so that i'll rmb this valuable lesson,you gave me. you came into my mind these couple of days. there're good memories, there're bad ones too. but somehow the bad overpowered the good. i don't deny the fact that we shared good times together, but all are lies, aren't it? yeah, at first i can't face the fact that you could act really well when we're together, but after some serious thinking, i know i'll never want a guy like you in my life. a person full of nothing but lies. every single thing you do, every single thing you say, are all lies. am feeling lucky that we stopped everything early. & yeah, it's definitely not my fault, nor my loss. thanks for this valuable lesson that i'll never forget.

am seems to be getting out of the scene already. and well, perhaps, this is what i always wanted. letting me be a happier person. no more time for nonsense. just wanna work hard towards what i really want! hope i'll get a place in the course i want,.... be a better person.. & the list goes on & on.. i know i'll always have the support from my family & friends that care for me. & yea, can't wait for cny to come! mahjong, poker & many more self-invented card games! family-bonding~~ will be taking my TP in the month of feb too! failed once, please bless me for the second. i want my driving license. ;p

any joker wanna bring me out tonight?

peeeeektures!

2010-01-12T22:53:00.004+09:00

photobucket's been a bitch! always giving me problems. @#$%^&* now, am gonna blog with peeeeektures! it's been a longlong time since i do a proper post! having the mood tonight, so yea. haha. last week was a pretty fruitful week for me! one-day msia shopping trip, shopping alone around town, celebrate love's 20th birthday, meet-up with hanako&edwin for dim sum & coca steamboat,settlers & movie with the jap classmates! old dogs is definitely a good flick! :> love grp outings & weekends like this! board games theme cafe is fun! it bonds friends together, & a time to sabo your friends too. love the christmassssy prezzie that kim got for me!mad kawaii. :p

vonvon's 20th bday last friday! a mini celebration over at hot stones! first time there & it's a new experience for the both of us. we had to cook our own seafood on the stone! the quality of the food is definitely worth the price. i love the garlic rice & salmon, totally tentalising & fresh. ;p had a great time eating, sharing... chatting the night away. love, hope you enjoyed yourself that day! & m glad that you love the present. <3 once again, harrrrrpey birthday! can't wait to see you again soon! love you. :>

life's pretty mundane for me still, but m going to make changes to it soon! dropping by a private sch tmr!haha.

it's the 12th today, and well, you came into my mind. but all i have to say is, i had more or less gotten over everything & moved on. it's your loss, definitely not mine.

2010-01-03T23:36:00.000+09:00

i am sitting on my bed watching news now. am pretty sick of dramas already, and there's nothing much to watch either. mad hungry now, but i really don know what to eat. sissy's bf is staying over tonight, so we might have a supper session, not confirm though.

well, it's 2010 already, but still feeling 2009 though. happy that it's a brand new year, cos everything will start afresh. the last two months of 2009 was really bad for me. bad guy, bad relationship, bad tp, bad mood swings,bad xmas, bad nye. & i made my parents mad worried about me. well, i didn't mean to & never will i want myself to be the cause of their unhappiness. but thank god, they're forever so encouraging.. and i really miss hanging out with my friends! haha, it's less than a week to vonvon's bday! can't wait to celebrate w her. :> can't wait to see valent,grace & rxn too! cos it's been so longgggggg. & ade! where's our sun-tanning/club/bbq session before your sch start? & not forgetting my jap classmates too! really miss hanako & everyone! haha. text me text me text me when you guys are free!

hope 2010 will be a better year for my family, friends and myself. can't wait for the msia' trip tmr! first short getaway for 2010! hope i'll get to travel more this year!

gonna get some food now! haha.

brand new year.

2009-12-27T16:56:00.000+09:00

this space was left untouched for the past two months. way too lazy to post anything. few more days to welcome a brand new year. 2009 was a pretty alright year for me, but still there bound to be downs which pretty affect me. alright, m heading to granny's place soon! shall be back to post something. :>

what a life!

2009-10-30T00:01:00.002+09:00

oh baby! the internet is back! happy x100000. haha, i've the mood to blog so much tonight & idk why. at least, this can keep me occupied. haven't been blogging with piccas. pretty lazy to take and upload. but neeways, some really random piccas to make this post not so plain. haha.

went tanning with love last sunday! mac breakkies,auntie-mat,gay(s) spotted, childish adults spotted, ridiculous cheeeena men, one and only hawt guy spotted,loud r&b music blasting, hawwwwwt sun, cute dog, pokka green tea. but, not a very good tan. :( didn't got very tanned, but burnt. YES. afterall, it's the company that counts. love lazy sundays like this. haha, can't wait to meet love again! :>

so dad got me a new phone. htc touch2. i don really fancy this phone. it's not user-friendly x infinity. the only good thing is the plan that dad got for me,where i can surf the internet and get online anywhere, even the forest. so this might be the one and only plus point. i'll TRY to love the phone. haha.

too early to say, but i am dying to be at zoukout 2009. anyone interested? or maybe, i should just jio my very coolz driving instructor. he said he is interested. haha

am mad hungry now. waiting for sissy's bf to be over so we can have supper!!!!!!! fat, but i promise, only tonight. hahahahaha. nights. ^^v

xoxo, tiffy.

great wall of tiffy.

2009-10-29T22:43:00.000+09:00

i realise i really have this wall built up in me. no matter how, no matter wad, i can't seems to break it down. that's really bad. cos it simply screwed me up. so how now? :(

i wish i was happier.

2009-10-23T00:26:00.000+09:00

i really wish i was happier. well, it's not that everything i have now doesn't make me happy, but... it's not what i am looking for in my life. i wish i was really happy when i live every single day. to be honest, it's beeeeeeen a longlong time since i felt really happy and sweet when i smile. i really miss that kinda feeling. when can i ever get that back? sighh. am staring into space now, feeling reallllly bored. can someone talk to me please? shrugs. random but i can't wait for dec to come! can't wait to pass TP!!! hmm. maybe i should be good tonight and start doing my jap homework. a night of silence again................ maybe good things really don't come by easy.

laugh or cry?

2009-10-17T20:10:00.000+09:00

i want to blog,.... but i don know what to say atm. haha.

am back! haha.

2009-10-01T11:29:00.003+09:00

i decided to shift back to blogger bcos i really miss blogging here. am kinda sick of tumblr already. but guess i will still be back there to update quotes and what not that i find interesting. haha. so i went for driving today & i kenna this very cute instructor! well, he's still stuckkkked in my mind now. awww. well, cute guys are good for my eyes yea? haha, am gogo-gaga alr!!!! well, time passed really fast for me, september zooooomed past & it's oct alr. am gonna finish my jap basic course, and i've decided to move on to intermediate. it's pretty tiring. but.. well. i really don wish to stop halfway. but thank god, there's this long weekend where i can rest before i start lessons again. i really wanna hit the beach badly. anyone? and yesssss, i really have the urge to booooze and club!! any takers? text me text me! shopping too! haha. picture post soon. am gonna continue day-dreaming abt the cute guy. haha.

blogger, i miss you.

2009-09-16T20:11:00.004+09:00

i don know why, but i really miss blogging @ blogger. :<

i hearts tumblr.

2009-08-03T00:47:00.001+09:00

blogger's such an ass recently. i cannot upload pics and blog normally, like most of the time. so i have decided to shift. it's been three years here, but well. i wanna try out tumblr! it's totally addictive. i might come back here, maybe in future. haha, i hearts tumblr. so yeah,....

http://tiffyang.tumblr.com

see you there! people should just create this. baibai :>

life's just so mundane,..

2009-08-01T02:18:00.003+09:00

i splurge on this very expensive cup noodles today. i can buy many packetssss of indo-mee goreng instead. but aye, i'm lovin' it. & seriously, i need to pack my room badly. my bags are lying everywhere.. haha. so i started driving on the road already! hmm, it's enjoyable, but tiring. well, can't wait to get my license! i used to look forward to the day i get my driving license, but now.... sigh. jap lessons started for me too! it's pretty tough writing out jap characters. but m really looking forward to the day where i can speak fluent japanese, and of course, vacation at japan again! gonna nag mummylove for this. hahahaha. shall finish the last part of my drama before turning in. driving again tmr, yea hardcore. but i have to be busy now, at least for this period of time. and i really want a part-time job! any lobangs, contact me please. haha, nights. (:

p/s it takes a month to get closer, but it takes only a second to destroy everything. and yes, you hurt me, maybe i hurt you too. i just know..... it's not a good period of time for me.

p/p/s stay in blogger, or shift to tumblr?

days without you..

2009-08-01T02:15:00.000+09:00

2009-07-30T11:42:00.002+09:00

my almost lover, the way you change is faster than how a human should react. now, you became a razor that cut me so deep,..... i can barely hear from you anymore.

the knot in my heart..

2009-07-19T10:53:00.000+09:00

it goes round, round & round,..

days, months, years through my life, it gets even more complicated,

i can't open up,.. nor do i have the ability to,

it's a dead knot.

opposite of what it should be,..

2009-07-19T03:00:00.002+09:00

the conversation we had, should be a happy one,... but why did i feel jaded instead? yay, i might be pessimistic about stuffs, but that's the cruel fact that we must face in life, isn't it?

bitter or sweet?

2009-07-17T05:30:00.000+09:00

town with sissy this evening. caught harry potter,.. and the ending is kinda disappointing. everyone in the theatre seems to be expecting something more than what's there for us. but still, it's worth watching. tickets are selling like hotcakes! sissy and me had to make do with the first row angle,. haha. we strolled down town, with the old-man ice-cream in our hands before cabbing home. i'm pretty shaggged now, but why can't i just shut my eyes and bloooooody go to bed? neeeeways, vonvon! can't wait to meet you next week, even if it's for a simple dinns! (: shalll shut my half-opened eyes now. nights.

p/s maybe it's..... i really don know. i just know,... imissyou.

random..

2009-07-15T07:21:00.001+09:00

just came back from my morning jog & i'm drennnnched all over, cos of the sudden downpour. but still, i managed to finish the daily routine. (-: the weather is so cooling now, definitely nice to sleep in..., but.. ah, i still need to bath & dry my hair first.. halfway through the jog, my ipod was playing vanessa hudgens - say ok,.. i don know why, but i feel alot for this song. it's a veryvery old song.. but well, the lyrics just seems to sing out everything. haha. alright nuff said, shall get a warm bath, before deciding, breakfast? or sleep? random, but i really miss tanning @ the beach. i wanna beach-bum at sentosa. anyone free? or maybe i should go alone.. haha, sounds so emo-momo.

falling down is no joke,...

2009-07-15T04:47:00.003+09:00

hey-yo! i decided to stop stop stop stop,... procrastinating, & decorate this space with something. haha. life's been pretty _____ ( i seriously don know what word can fit into this space) for me. i know i whine alot, but that's me. caught a couple of movies for the past few weeks, and transformer is a totally awesome flick! but i really need to peeeeeee halfway with casey, cos the movie is god damn long.. haha! ice-age 3 wasn't really that nice, nevertheless i had a good laugh! plus the birthday celebration for sheng aft the movie was simple and nice. (-: managed to do a lil catching up with love too! haven't been seeing her for dayssssss, and i really miss those catching up sessions! hope you're doing fine, love! (-:

singapore flyer with cousins, during their hols

we had cheap thrills for singapore flyer! endless bus rides & fast food feast. great get-together session with them :-P but didn't managed to catch a midnight movie, cos all the theatres are closed very earrrrrrly. home-d and becca, rach & me just cuddle each other on the bed for a online movie till the wee hours..., i really miss those childhood times, where we spend most of the time fighting and pulling each other's hair. can't wait for their next hols!

weekend dinner with sissy & her boyf

dinns with sissy and her boyf at a sports bar! it's a very cosy place,haha. me totally love the vegetarian pasta and overpriced apple juice! the burgers they had was hugeeee! shopping at marina aft dinns and zara was having a great sale! but sissy & me didn't managed to get anything. :-( i really want another shopping spree before GSS end! or has it ended? i totally got disconnected from the outside world, haha.

Sunny Sunday (:

sunday was spent daytona-ing with my cousin, haha! he's definitely a raceeeeer! i was beaten badly in any race with him :-( i will try harder next time. lol dinns over at grandma's place and we played bingo! i am the second winner of the day (30 cents nia), but i am stilllll veryvery happy! bad quality pictures from my phone, but i still love the phone! got scratches alreaddddddy sia :-(

p/s can't wait to pass BTT next week!
p/p/s i can't wait to parrrtaye again!
p/p/p/s do i know what i really want?

make a choice? nah. cos i have none.

2009-07-09T15:45:00.000+09:00

" The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you ; It is when you don't understand yourself. "

so true.., i am always stuckkkked in this situation. now, i feel pretty handicapped. i don know what to do but to avoid everything i can. how much can i face? i really,.. and always doubt the ability i thought i would have to face everything. i realise there're so many things in life that i have yet to build the courage to tackle. well, how long would this take again? i really don know. all i can do now, is......... alright, am lost again.

round & round.

2009-07-07T04:20:00.000+09:00

haven't been updating this space,.. m always procrastinating. well, i wanna write something here, but nothing comes out of me. now, i can't sleep & it's somehow killing me brain cells. complicated life we have here. forget abt it, i should try to sleep now.

p/s you're too cool for me to bear.

bad days over, good days ahead.

2009-06-24T09:11:00.000+09:00

when the time to let go is here, there's no way you can avoid. it's really time to put an end to every shit that happened in my life. nothing is gonna pull me down. bad days are over, better days are ahead of me. i am a happy girl now! (; life is just too short for me to be grumpy all the time. haha.

just pure unlucky.

2009-06-23T05:00:00.001+09:00

Father's day dinns with the big family (; love the C's sisters,..& we love our fav drink (qoo)! haha. casey refused to show me her teeth when i take pictures cos she say she is bogay now. HAHA. rounding and groceries shopping at jp with my fav peepo after dinns.

da bomb. best dinner before driving lesson. me likey ;P

p/s can't wait for wed! gonna have fun!
p/s/s 時間がすべてを治すことができることを希望してください。

good morning yo!

twit along with me!

2009-06-23T03:00:00.004+09:00

HAHA! Hey yo (; Follow me on twitter now!

http://www.twitter.com/tiffyangshuyi

you're dangerous

2009-06-18T10:44:00.000+09:00

it's dangerous to play with fire, but.. i still choose to continue. you're so near yet so far. sigh.

when you say....

2009-06-12T03:10:00.000+09:00

today you answer my question i asked yesterday,..but well, shut it off tiffy.

p/s how true when you say, good and worthy things are often hard to come by.

2009-06-11T09:46:00.002+09:00

i got a planner, like finally! m happy, cos it's cheap thrill for me. love GSS manz. haha. so yesterday was a really hardcore workout day for me. jogging > hiking > swimming. and i totally adore pool-loving time! haha, sissy and me totally forget all about the time when we were having small talks at the jacuzzi. mummylove had to text me, "come back for dinner," haha! morning jog today is totally refreshing. (-: shall get some rest now before i head out. nights peepo.

p/s how are you recently?

it's mid-week!

2009-06-09T20:46:00.002+09:00

"It is about your outlook towards life. You can either regret or rejoice."

I had a really bad gastric problem this morning,.. the feeling was terrible. totally drained out these few days. i feel like coma whenever i sleep. & that's pretty scary, cox i can't wake up without a right round head. this really shucks. it's mid-week now and i totally can't wait for this weekend! vonny's CTs over (say yay to hols!) and catching up with vonny & long time no see babe over dinns on sat! eggcited. (-: haha. let's camwhoreeeeeee. haha. it's drama mama time again!

p/s i hate the ulcer under my tongue, i can't eat properly. :-(

& i don care what they say, i'm gonna be with you..

walk in my shoes.

2009-06-08T02:02:00.000+09:00

walk in my shoes, and understand me. it's so tiring...... trust me. it's really tiring. as i played the songs in my ipod, i realise i can't get things out of my mind. so i decide to just let things stay the way it is. yes, it's hurtful but the bravest thing i could do now, is to face it and not avoid. all i can say for the night is, disappointment filled me up. it's tiring being the nice person in the whole dreamy picture. well, time to sleep. nights.

p/s m gonna say, "please don worry about me, i'm fine."

serenity.

2009-06-06T01:29:00.000+09:00

"Love others. And Love will comeback to you."

Haha, another inspirational quote. I would say so far so good,.. i'm taking things quite easy. I'm still learning how to control the emotions I have in me, & i'm glad that things are doing fine. At least for now. It's a pretty calm and quiet night, tonight. Shall put everything aside and give my mind a deserved rest. Shall be motivated to sleep early too, cos m meeting my best friend tmr! (-: can't wait!, and i totally cannot afford to be late, not even for a minute. haha! nights.

why?

2009-06-04T04:30:00.001+09:00

i still have doubts whenever i ask myself "why am i feeling this way?". somehow i just can't figure it out. i try to shove things aside, but.. it doesn't work. guess now only time could make things seems easier. maybe i'm just thinking too much,..things never change, me never change, you never change. i don know since when and why am i in this situation,..i shouldn't be you know. get me out of this mess. c'mon tiffy, focus on making more money.

p/s tonight, so quiet.

get the smile on my face, wider.

2009-06-01T01:33:00.000+09:00

" Every human being will get happy only after facing the difficulties in their life path... So do not afraid to face your difficulties. They will push you forward."

now, i'm feeling so much better compared to this morning. was surfing the net, & i came across this inspirational quote image. i love the quote. & i know i pretty much need this to gain enlightenment to move ahead and to brave all the obstacles that's ahead for me. never be afraid of difficulties, let them be afraid of you. i shall drill this into my head! guess i should ditch whatever negative thoughts i have aside, and concentrate fully on how i should go about earning money (lotsa money for shopping!). but first, i had to attend the property agent course. mummylove very much wanted me to get into this line, daddykins encourage me to try it out too. so, maybe well, i shouldn't waste anymore time, & give my best shot. i hope my loved ones will be supportive when i make my first step. i really need support. so, my goal for now.. is to earn at least 5k by end of this month, realistic or not? haha. ^^

fuckingly fucked up.

2009-05-31T10:59:00.002+09:00

yeah, as the title suggest,.. i'm feeling fuckingly fucked up. well, i really feel very mentally, emotionally and physically drained out already. i just feel like locking up myself at home. sometimes, you thought by treating someone sincere, that person would appreciate it.. and by being kind and all, things in your life would be better. that's whole lot of a fucking bullshit. perhaps i was too impatient, but good karma never seems to meant for me...... i admit i was expecting something good to happen to me,.. this someone would be here to talk to me, to comfort me when i'm going through all these shits. but expectations sucks. fuck it seriously. do i deserve such things? did my character, the things that i do made me a worthless creature to deserve better things, better treatment? at least, there's one thing for sure, my best friend would always be very patient towards me. but life has been a fucking bitch. what's bad?

family? checked.
friends? checked.
love? checked.

when life's already so bad, when i can't get myself to catch a wink last night till like 6 in the morning, somebody has to wake me up at 10 to pack my fucking room. pleaseeee be understanding. what's wrong with a messy room? fuck it seriously la. & i can't even lock myself up for the day. i was forced to get out to visit my grandma.. plus some fucking birthday party. fuck fuckk fuckkk. & yeah, m going to ditch clubbing. clubbing aint as fun as what i thought it would be. so much so for everything... forget about it.

a decent post.

2009-05-31T00:25:00.002+09:00

am i falling into something which i shouldn't, yet and again? i admit,.. i do miss you when you aint here. but... well. things don seems to go right somehow. & i always show the ugly side of myself to you. or.. am i expecting too much? i really hate myself for this and that.. or maybe tiffy, you're simply worrying too much. hey boy, you're such a bad ass.

sucks.

2009-05-30T11:45:00.001+09:00

i only had 4 hours of sleep,... after drinking so much ytd night. i cannot get back to sleep now bcos of don know what reason. i want to sleeeeeeeep! the feeling of being awake now sucks.

p/s i wish i never knew you

bit by bit,.. & don't expect..

2009-05-28T01:14:00.002+09:00

i realise i am slowly accepting things. maybe it's only 1% of acceptance i am talking abt, m glad that i took the first step to accept. it's gonna be a tough road ahead of me, till i reach my goal. but nothing is gonna pull me down, yea tiffy? i always believe that we shouldn't expect too much,.. it's tested & proven that yes, we shouldn't. the more i expect, the more things wont happen. so yeah. stop expecting & moved on. life will still be as great. it's gonna be sunshine after rain. ha. gonna party like a rockstar this weekend. hope things will go right, not wrong. chillllz. just get back up when they knock you down!

dehydrate.

2009-05-27T10:35:00.001+09:00

just came back from jogging/hiking. well, had a nice chat with mum..., & i kinda feel refreshed after exercising, but still... sigh. somehow, i cannot believe i shed buckets of tears last night.., it's been sometime since i last cried so badly. tears keep flowing,.. & i can't help but to feel the heartache badly. it's not totally bcos of you,... i didn't know simple things could affect me so much. & now i really hate the fact that i had to be stronger to face whatever that's in front of me. i am just a normal human being,.. don make things so hard for me, can? guess now, nothing can help me other than me myself. fuck this seriously. maybe now someone can give me more money, so i can do more shopping, & i will be a little happier. i think that's bullshit from me. alrighty, i'm totally dehydrated from all the crying and sweating. time to bath and sleep.

downside of life.

2009-05-26T22:59:00.000+09:00

as i try onto those dresses,

i realise you could find someone so much better than me.

at the end of the day, i leave with a cold heart.

officially sick.

2009-05-26T01:06:00.000+09:00

oh gawd, i sleep for more than 12 hours today. just feel very tired,.. & bcos of the weather, i think i have a sore throat now, and if i don take care, a fever is gonna come along. & that's really bad. i don wanna fall sick. :-( i run out of panadols now, shitzo. gonna get some from 7-11. should i jog later? sigh.

p/s i have to face the fact & believe that, what will be,... will be.

tiffy, drill this into your head.

2009-05-25T07:19:00.000+09:00

i thought i moved on. but everything came back to haunt me again. fuck it seriously. i feel quite affected now. but tiffy, get this into your head. you've no reason in the world to feel what you're feeling now. i don want to, either. damn it.

bring me out tonight. i want some company.

fill in the blank, in my heart.

2009-05-25T02:25:00.000+09:00

it's monday again,.. can't wait for the next weekend. hope i can get my ass out manz. well, there's alot of things that i wanna do.. but,.. everyone is busy with their individual stuffs. & yeah, i'm looking for constructive things to do too. i wanna sun-tan, shop (so many stuffs to buy!), chill, bum ard, club (can't wait to booze again!).. & maybe talk to... & love! i miss you. haha. well, let's see how things goes yea. gotta sleep already. ditch eyebags campaign. nights (-:

p/s for the first time, i miss you.

flying solo...

2009-05-24T23:14:00.000+09:00

i'm losing myself. there seems to be so many things cooping inside me,.. but why can't i seems to rant it all out when i am here? maybe words can't describe a single bit of what i am feeling all these while. it's never easy...., never easy to face every single shit i am feeling. well, seriously i hate to repeat..., i don wish to bore anyone either. i always remind myself that.., there's definitely someone out there feeling a thousand times worse than me. so,.. i must count myself fortunate. but....... let me fly solo now.

p/s is that a indirect hint for me?

when things came crashing down..

2009-05-22T22:36:00.000+09:00

i don know why i feel pretty affected when it's only a small thing that i noticed. maybe it's bcos i'm scared, or i just refused to face the fact, that yea... i mean, why like that. i shouldn't feel this way. no, there's no reason for me to feel this way. plus,... ____ wouldn't know that i actually feel this way. i still can remember what you say that night, vividly. now, i wanna avoid songs that starts with L. chill manzzzzzzzz. i shall enjoy myself tonight, by playing wii with my cousins. byez.

when things are not right.

2009-05-21T02:45:00.000+09:00

i think the only thing that makes me happy for the night,.. is the long chat i have with vonvon over at her house,.. & putting up my favourite music video at the side of my blog. haha. but, well i should be contented already. at least, i learn to be yea. it's time to sleep alr. nights peepo.

p/s everything goes left. i shall close my eyes, open up my mind.. & let go. don expect.

aren't you tired?

2009-05-19T04:07:00.002+09:00

I can't get to sleep after tossing and turning on my bed for the past two hours,.. there's only one reason for this. you're in my mind for the whole night. stop thinking tiffy! no point. when you expect too much, it wont happen. i shall sleep now, wake up later,..to jog. nights. sigh.

i wonder...

2009-05-18T00:35:00.000+09:00

i wanna blog about the issue. but i don know where to start, & what to type. i just can't stop wondering. alright, i shall go to bed now. eyebags no more. nights.

a big mistake.

2009-05-16T23:27:00.002+09:00

dbl o with ade last night. a typical night with booze,.. not bad music & a nice crowd at the dancefloor. but minus that hour when i lost ade, & couldn't find her until the dancefloor is closed. & maybe phuture next week? haha. practically nothing to do on a saturday night, just that the stone song was on repetitive mode. thinking back, i seriously don know what got into me last night. i felt that it's a big mistake.. what's over is over. shall forget about it. & ok, i shall find someone to talk on the phone now. at least, the night.. is not so cold and lonely. haha. kbye.

p/s the conversation between us is not a test paper,.. there's no model answers for it. i don expect any model answers too.

happy for that one min.

2009-05-13T05:38:00.001+09:00

i just finished watching bolt not long ago,.. was facing the lappy laughing alone the whole time. a cute character, with a flat nose! ha. it's dawn already. i feel like blogging, but my mind is semi-blank now. m only waiting for 6 to jog.. & i pretty love the chat on the phone tonight.. at least it made me happy for that minute. it's sissy's off day today. we decided to ditch shopping & watch dramas at home! i love couch potato sessions like this. but..., on the other hand, i would like to head out too. ah, contradicting. maybe it's bcos couch potato sessions will make me fat! haha. random, but i'm gonna get contacts without degree. i want my eyeballs to look bigger. maybe i should get grey instead of brown. plus, i saw really nice dresses at miss selfridge! i wanna buy. :-( should try out some soon. shall get ready for the jog. good morning. :-O

uzap, izap, we zap.

2009-05-10T23:58:00.002+09:00

i'm enjoying the ultimate shiokness of life now, using my sissy's uzap to zap all my fats away (been eating too much this weekend!), blasting my ipod with my fav robodance remix, & blogging the night away in front of the lappy. i had a bored yet happy weekend. i finallly got hold of my new phone (nokia e63)! daddykins paid for me, instead of me paying for it. haha (-: a simple phone with big keypad and screen. totally love the big screen! ha. m really harrrpppy that i get to meet love last thurs! shopped for mother's day gift, & dinns over at 7atenine. guess, i only love the alcoholic drinks & service there! the food, hmm, too chessy & buttery for me. ha, didn't take much peektures cos we're too busy chilling out. meet-ups like this is never enough for me, m missing it already. :-P rather random, but i really miss jogging, haven't been jogging for the past week cox of the monthly affair. i wanna jog/hike tmr morning! pleassssse don rain... & now, i'm thinking what i should do for the whole of next week... i wanna club...........big things poppin' yea \m/ but.. ha, maybe i should crash vonvon's lecture on thurs. & i promise i wont bomb you again. lol. drama mama time again! nights peeepo.

p/s you're too weird for me to understand.

red hot cheeks.

2009-05-07T05:11:00.002+09:00

tuesday was out with sissy for the whole afternoon/night. bugis first for the new shopping mall. maybe bcos it's new, so nothing much to see or shop. & we tried duck tongues! haha, quite shiokkk you know. but way too spicy. i can't stop laughing when i see the shape of the tongue. haha. city hall to chill out, & we chat alot about stuffs,i really love how we can share everything with each other. those childhood stories, family, friends, love... (-: dinns at 7atenine, a restaurant at esplanade. a cool chill-out place with a bonus night view! & i think they served french cuisine.ha, i had whisky coke & whisky sprite for the night. sissy couldn't finish hers, so i down it too. the food was alright and i love the natta fresca! m heading there again tmr with love! can't wait to see her! haha. more pictures tmr! now, it's time to sleep. good night people.

p/s i pay attention to every word you say, shitzo or not? haha.

what's this? ouch.

2009-05-05T04:10:00.000+09:00

not infatuation, not a crush, not liking, not love, then what's this? i just can't figure it out. somehow, i feel affected. but why? by right, i shouldn't feel this way. by left,........ nah, i don wanna feel this way. it sucked alot, to a certain extent. but so far, i'm coping it with an ok attitude. that's a plus manz. maybe it's just attraction. be selective tiffy! don let this happen too easy & often. ha, i shall shut my mind off this for now, at least for now. (i'm such a contradicting creature here.) haha. heading out with sissy tmr. shopping. i wanna buy something! & bless me with truckloads of luck that yestuition will call/email me that they found a student for me! i wanna teach, i wanna slack at home no more........ please. :-P && i want a hardcore clubbing soon. but my cousin is too busy with work to entertain me. :-( ok, shall listen to my music now. bb ^^v

knock you down...

2009-05-04T16:42:00.006+09:00

so how's your long weekend? mine was pretty occupied with activities here & there. cycling at ECP (to bedok jetty with the C sisters, haha), waraku dinner, sleeping early (it's been quite some time since i last sleep at 10), watching dramas, eating & eating, satisfied my cravings for crabs,prawns,... badminton, swimming with the C sisters, sending the C sisters off to school in the morning. peektures on hold, cos i didn't manage to bluetooth any over from carmen's phone. haha, kinda lazy you see. so yeah, it's carmen's birthday today. well, happy birthday girl. i still love you, no matter how many times you ask me to buy you a birthday gift, & giving you treats. haha! & now, i can't wait to see the new wall colour of my room! i chose purple, & mum said everything turn out really nice for sissy's & my room! shall see it later. (-:

now the first song on my playlist clearly decipher how i feel most of the time. sometimes love comes around, and they knock you down, just get back up when they knock you down, knock you down.

yeah, no dope boy ringtone for the past few days. i should just stop expecting. i told myself not to, but i'm doing the opposite. fuck it seriously. haha. but remember, just get back up when they knock you down. no big deal yea? chill it manzzzzzz. dinner time now. eat again...... haha.

cruel or not?

2009-04-30T05:31:00.003+09:00

i think i failed miserably in my plan for sleeping early this week. cos i just can't! my bio clock is f-ing screwed up. so now, i'm alone sitting on this chair, with no one around & no one in sight. That made me think deep about certain issues.. this afternoon, i was texting love, & she mentioned abt something called, karma. i do believe in karma, & m really scared of bad karma falling on me. but sometimes, do we have a choice for treating people in certain ways? i doubt so. we can't be pleasing every single people around us. & one more thing, if we don protect ourselves, who will be here to protect us? i got this paranoid feeling in me about ____ that i know i will take months or maybe years to overcome. that's bcos i failed to protect myself, & remind myself (all the time) to choose the right way to handle the situation, & not be a fool. i'll move on, & find my way out. it's a matter of time only... haha, & now, i shall drop this issue.

so today is the eve of a holiday for everyone! well, i haven't had any plans yet except for the dim sum lunch i will have with my grandparents & mummylove later! i miss all the har gao & siew mai already. hahaha. no plans for the long weekend, & i'm quite sad that the malacca trip was cancelled last minute due to don know what reason. :-( plus i'll be home alone for the whole day on friday. cos my folks are going to batam! peepo, ask me out if you are free, k? hahaha. aye, shall get back to my dramas before turning in. nights!

p/s do you still wanna talk to me? aww.

aint a housewife material. haha.

2009-04-28T20:26:00.001+09:00

i'm so tired now. but m controlling myself not to nap, so i can sleep earlier tonight. (hope so.) so today was some housework day alone. this is when i realised i really hate doing those chores. i think i aint some housewife material. i love to throw my things around, my bedroom is forever messy, dad had to nag,... mum had to nag even more. haha! & i love to sleep & bum around at home instead. interesting lifestyle huh. but at least doing these chores, made me less guilty when papa give me allowance. at the same time, he can relax more during weekends. ah, so yea, i should just bear with it until i got some constructive stuffs to do. it's drama mama time again! will decorate this space with more interesting stuffs soon!

ultimate procrastinator.

2009-04-28T04:12:00.002+09:00

so much so for making a pact with myself that i'll sleep early this week. it's four now, & i'm still awake. maybe it's bcos i slept way too much just now. but m really tired, that my eyes could hardly open. & now, i couldn't sleep :( welllllll, m quite tempted to eat hotcakes now. ahh, shall see later after my morning jog. so...... i miss sun-tanning (minus the sunburnt). cos i love the bronze colour i have on my shoulder now........ & when's boooozing session? malacca, go or don go? can't wait for more fruitful daysssssss. & chilll, tiffy.

a quick update.

2009-04-25T01:53:00.001+09:00

so yea, a pictureless entry again cos practically i'm too lazy to take any pictures. haha. so thurs was a couch-potato day with ade over at my crib, & today was meeting up with love at town for some dinns/coffee at tcc. oh manz, they served really nice aglio olio! with fresh scallops and prawns! totally love the garlic.. but the pepper is too spicy for my taste buds. the chocolate raspberry frappe was good too. taste like some blackforest cake, but yeah, it spells fattening & there goes my diet plan. lol. well, í promise myself i will be more determined next week! haha. last but not least, best of all, it's the company. (: besides a diet plan, i think i should make an effort to sleep early everyday. late nights are making me looking real shag & i don like the shopping eyebags! must start next week tiffy! alright, it's time for one episode of drama and bed time. tmr is another couch potato session with ade! nights people.

breath slow.....

2009-04-22T21:28:00.001+09:00

honestly speaking, i do miss going to school. cos it's so much better than slacking at home & doing nothing,.. well, i don wanna stop my education level at ite, but for now, i really don know where to go. i'm thinking of taking private. maybe mdis or sim, but seriously now, i don know which is good & what's the best choice so that i wouldn't waste money & time. i check out everything online, but still i am lost for choices. suggestions? hmm. so, i've been doing morning jogs, plus hiking at bukit timah hill with mummylove. i love the very steep slope up. haha! plus morning breakfast at timah food centre is thumbs up. now i miss the food there already. lol, shall stop thinking abt food now.

& now that i thought it through, we don get a partner bcos we need a companion... it's bcos we know that person could guide you through everything (in a sense yea). well, i kinda miss chatting with.... haha. but i know clearly where i should stand for now... yeah, i should just keep away from everything that starts with a l and ends with a e.

breath slow................ i shall wait and see.

go tiffy..

2009-04-22T05:03:00.001+09:00

hahaha, can you spot me?so, sunburnt really sucks, thou one of my favourite hobby was to bum by the beach & to sun-tan. but... i don really fancy the super red cheeeks one day after. haha. these few days, weather was hot like f, & that explains why i have four big fat ulcers in my mouth. this really suck alot, cos i can't eat properly. & one thing to sulk about, is the sch-reopening for the polys. this means i'll have lesser time to meet up with love & ade. vonvon is sick, hope you get well soon yea! we can meet up for a simple dinns soon. (: i kinda miss singing already, & it's only a few days back we went for k session. && the other thing that i yearn for, is to hit the club, oh manz, the mega loud music, plus some boozing session. but well, guess this plan wont work until everyone is free. i hope soon. haha. & these few days, i've been exercising my determination for this hardcore diet plan i have....... hahahahahaha! this means, i will bid goodbye to all the good food. emo.

i've got to say no to chocolates (i'm so gonna miss m&ms :( ), gummy sweets, mac, supper, oily fried food, not too much meat, chips, cold iced water,.... & the list goes on for the most fattening food in the whole wide world. &&&& say yes to more lemon water, vegetables, soupy sliced fish noodles (my fav!haha), tau huey, less sugar tau huey water, soupy kway tiao fish noodles,.... & a healthier choice of food.

this really suck big time, cos.... i can't eat as and when i like, whatever i like. :( but still, i wont restrict myself like some crazy aneroxia girl. i can't resist temptations you see, haha. it's five in the morning now... i'm waiting for six so i can go for my morning jog! alright, shall bum around until time's up. nighty.

p/s the guitar strings..... i wonder how it feels to see you play in person. haha. stop tiffy. lol

like a roast pig.

2009-04-17T00:06:00.000+09:00

sentosa for sun-tanning with vonvon & ade today. we had fun spotting people,munching snacks, drinking lotsa water, looking for a toilet for more than 5 times, walking ard vivo looking for a nice place for dinns, having thai food, talking crap, cam-whoring, teasing each other, and putting cold hands on each other's ultra hot body,... etc.. & so now, i look like a roasted pig, red all over my face & back. didn't expect to get tanned like this, since mr sun wasn't that scorching today. but overall, i did enjoy myself, despite of what you call pms. haha. i don have the peektures yet, shall grab and post some nice ones soon. i haven't been sleeping for more than an hour since yesterday, & m not really tired now. superwoman or wad. haha. another day out tmr, m lovin' continuous outings like this. shall get some rest first, or not i'll do some robodance tmr.

i love things like this.

2009-04-15T04:53:00.000+09:00

it's four plus in the morning now..........., & i'm still awake. haha. oh manz, i slept as early as 8 just now, & yeah, i can't get back to sleep now. i don intend to either. haha! m going for a morning jog later. i am a little hungry now..... m going to heat up the bak kut teh in the fridge later. granny's good stuff you know. i am soooooo bored now, so m typing rubbish on this space. haha, i must keep my post entries going yea, or else, nobody's gonna read this space anymore. :( so, m lovin' things in my life now. as in... i thought my way through, at least, for now. haha. so yay! people, ask me out k. i wanna have fun. i wanna hit the club, real soooooon. please.

enlightenment, & it's time to party again.

2009-04-13T13:38:00.000+09:00

so yesterday night/morning, i was on the phone with a friend... & yeap, he pretty much gave me some enlightenment. i felt a tad better after the chat. think i've been too stubborn towards certain stuffs. well, there bound to be pros and cons. guess, most importantly, you know what you're doing is right. i think i should remember i always have the right to choose, & be demanding to a certain extent. prolly i've been too kind all these while, it's time to change. but maybe for the time being, i'm staying away from the love scene. i'm gonna be more selective. after all these years, i'm definitely stronger than what i expect. so now it's time to improve myself, kick my ass off, & start partying again! no more emo posts, no more why it's always me that's going through these shit stuffs. & i can't wait for thurs! hope mr sun is kind enough. i want sentosa. :P

can you speak what i feel?

2009-04-11T23:42:00.000+09:00

i failed terribly in life.

i am useless.

guessishouldjuststopthinkingfornow.

when disappointment gets greater than expectations..

2009-04-09T23:56:00.000+09:00

i wanted to blog so much about what i have been doing these few days................. but, after staring at the lappy for 20 mins, nothing comes out of me. guess, i'll leave that for another day. well, higher expectations brings greater disappointment. i just have to face the fact that nothing will happen... and i MUST stop expecting.. once again, you & you & you robbed every single bit of my confidence... tell me now, whose's fault? i only have myself to blame. tiffy, you're very dumb to commit the same mistake over and over again...... ok, another emo post. hope i'll make this the very last one. i'm ready to get drunk to kill on sat. \m/

stop procrastinating, tiffy.

2009-04-02T00:04:00.002+09:00

today was the release of last-semester results. i'm glad that i passed every single module, esp HR. not fantastic results, but at least i managed to tide through & get a full-cert. (: & so, for the past threee weeks, i've been a really hardcore slacker. my bio clock totally screwed up & i hate the sun. everyday was eating only one meal, facing the laptop(i got really sick of all those hongkong tv dramas), doing shit stuffs, jogging, sleeping..... (and the list goes on...) & yeah, i stayed at home for almost a week already, i think i'm becoming a stone. haven been feeling good either, more of mentally. well, fuck it seriously. so now, i choose not to procrastinate and do a picture spam. haha.

it was sissy's 21st a month back! ( happy 21 birthday sissy! you're like a sister to me. it's really nice to have you in the house. all the supper,gossiping,shopping...... thou you're really busy recently, i hope we can hang out/club together real soon! (: ) two days before her actual day, we surprised her at home with a cake & a silver bracelet! the mango mousse cake from bakerzin was the sex manzxzxzx. i can't get enough of the mousse! maybe that's bcox i'm always a fruit lover for every single sweet stuffs i eat. haha. the very next day, mummylove gave her a birthday treat at tung lok signatures. and yes! dim sum again. the food was fabolous, esp the mini egg tarts. i can gobble down three! but mummy stopped me. hahahahaha. retail therapy for the rest of the day, before sissy leave for msia.

mummylove's birthday on the 15. a simple lunch at crystal jade for dim sum (again, haha). i bought mumsy a chomel bracelet, & m glad that she love it. she wear it every now and then when she goes out. (: canele's cakes for her & my papa. & now, i got really sick of canele cakes already. i'm not a fan of cakes anyway. mumsy have always been the most important person in my life, i really can't imagine my life without her. thou, yea at times, she really nag alot but at the same time, she always shower me with tender loving care! happy birthday mummy! all i want is you to be healthy always. love you.

dim sum and kbox with vonvon about a week back. & now, i'm missing those singing sessions at kbox. before k-ing, we went for dim sum at turf city, they are having a 50% promotion. but the drink is a killer, seriously. for the price, we can buy like a few bottles already. haha. but overall, it's an enjoyable day with love! except for the part, where i got migrain & we had to leave early for home. that really sucked. but.... well, i can't wait to meet up again! (: for sun-tanning, shopping...... before the vacation ends. haha.

last weekend was staying over at the C sister's house. but i didn't really spend alot of time with them cox they are forever so busy, ( doing proj, swimming lessons, piano lessons, tuition...) still, it was a greaaaaat time conversing with them! haha. at least, i got my feets out of my house.

ok. i shall stop my picture spam for now. time to........ turn mouldy again. or maybe i should start to plan/figure out how i should go about booking a slot for the stupid BTT.

p/s sometimes i just hope that someone would be here for me,..... no... i should just stop thinking and expecting......

sometimes.........

2009-03-20T21:13:00.000+09:00

so... i'm at home now on a fri night. well, i hate staying at home (being a couch potato) but at the same time, i'm very lazy to drag my fat feets out. come to think of it, i've been home alone for the whole day. & i hardly speak. as in really talk, & i really feel like a mute speaker. this made me feel that i really don have anyone to talk to. (putting vonvon & family aside, since they're always here for me) sometimes, i feel really tired....... maintaining a positive attitude towards everything. do you know it's very tiring? i feel useless sometimes, my life seems to revolve around nothing. all i could see is black and white. i know sometimes we can't have the best out of everything... but....... sometimes i would rather give up some things that i have now, for something else that can really perks me up? i don know what can perk me up... but yea.. all i do is sleeeeeep and sleeeep and sleeeeeep. my world turned upside down.. okkkkkkkz. i shall stop.

i thought i was...

2009-03-16T20:53:00.000+09:00

I thought Í've gotten over you. But this is so not true when......... Please give me the strength to pull through.. I don't want things to remain like this.

quick one & go...

2009-03-13T07:21:00.000+09:00

good morning people. just came back from my jog & i feel kinda refreshed now! haven't been jogging for the longest time (close to three weeks) cox of exams & stormy weathers. m happy that my stamina remains,.... & the passion for jogging is still as strong. :P & so, i unofficially graduated two days back. yay! i don have to wake up early & endure those long train rides alone anymore. however, i would miss those see-you-at-bishan days with grace & valent. & i dyed/highlight my hair yesterday. the colour seems kinda bright on me... love is very sweeeet to wait for me. haha. too bad she had tuition lessons with kiddoooos & we can only have dinns at the coffeeshop. can't wait to k next wed! (: ha. my fav mac hotcakes for breakkkkfast now!

red-bull night.

2009-03-10T02:34:00.001+09:00

red bull > raisins bread > r&b remix tracks > stack and stack of notes

time checked & it's 2.33 am. two cans of red bull already. hope it helps to keep me awake. tmr's the firsssst paper already....... bless me & my friends ok. ^^v shall get back to my notes already. endure tiffy.

a little too not over you..

2009-03-08T20:38:00.001+09:00

my throat feel damn blooooooody pain & dry now. (bcox i ate too much heaty food, hahahaha) plus the weather is everchanging. sunny > rainy > sunny. i think i'll fall sick soon. so i'm slightly distracted now, & i don feel like mugging, but i promise i will psycho myself to mug like mad laterrrrr cox lao niang wanna pass! ha. no flying colours but at least, a pass can. can't wait for mid-week! cox i'll be free from everything. & i can go shopping, sun-baking, chilling out, clubbing,....... (the list goes on..) don think i will commit myself to any job during the forever-holiday yet. i shall rest and be a slacker. \m/ tonight is a longgggggg night again....................

........

i am a little too not over you........

don't remind me the fact, & your bad.

cox the cruel fact in me is that, i still miss you.

TGIF!

2009-03-04T22:43:00.005+09:00

last fri was movie & dinns with love. caught "he's just not that into you" (a movie we promise to watch together. ha!) overall the movie was not bad, maybe bcox somehow you can relate yourself to either one of the characters. but one thing FOR SURE, i'm damn paranoid to get into a relationship after watching the movie, thou i did thot of C. but, yea m afraid of broken marriage & unfaithfulness,... ha. so after movie, went for a little shopping. then dinns at ding tai fung. it's my first time there! & i totally fell in love with the fried rice & xiao long baos. :P the red date drink was yummy too. aww, how i wish i can have either one of that, now. & i don't know why recently shops at town closed sooooo early, like at 9.30? i mean, where's late night shopping manz. singapore's night life is dying. =/ so we headed home rather early since love's tired, cox of mugging till early dawn the previous night.

something bad happened that night too & love stayed up to comfort me. well, i'm seriously touched cox she stayed by me even when she's tired and know that things that happened were getting ridiculous. ohhhh, where to find such a best friend. teehee. but i found one! (: sigh well, you totally aint worth it, but....... alright, i shall stop.

somehow, i'm craving for canele's berrries pie, mac strawberry sundae & hot tom yum soup now. sian, all so sinfulllllll. fat fat fat. my throat isn't feeeeeling ok either, shall get some honey & yea, it's drama time. i promise i will start mugging tmr. ha!

my heart ache as the night gets colder.

2009-03-04T03:50:00.003+09:00

time checked : 3.50am

-yawns- i just finished bits and pieces of my frontpage. like finally. haha, yay! ^^v though it's not fantastic, but i tried my best already. & i love those new songs i just downloaded! it kept me company through the cold & lonely night. well, i shall stop all these emo-ing. ha. but..... my heart really ache now. sigh, why like that again...... i shall go to bed now with my broken heart. :( < / 3

call me lazy bones.

2009-03-02T14:05:00.000+09:00

so i'm heading out soon, not to school but with mummy. i decided to forgo the deadline, & hand in tmr. i stayed up till 6 in the morning, & i'm only 3/4 done. (caffeine from coffee, chocolates do helps.) well, half my time was spent on frontpage since yesterday. sooooo i'm gonna take a break, & have fun with mummy. ha, i love mummy cox she makes me feel loved. not forgetting vonvon too! (: for staying by my side, checking on me here and there to make sure i'm fine.

& valent, don stresssss yourself too much. remember to save your work ok? lol. text me if you need help (:

shall go prepare now. i wanna spend money spend money spend money today.

fuck frontpage.

2009-03-01T18:22:00.002+09:00

omggggggg. i'm over at valent's house now doing the frontpage thing, but nothing comes out of my mind. no inspiration, no ideas, no creativity & whatever you can think of. both of us are rather pissed with the program alr. my cousin asked me out for dinns, but bcox of this, i cannot tag along. :((((( i don wanna stay home, cox i'll think alot & non-stop. what the fuck. seriously.

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so i just finished my dinns & my popo's home-cooked green bean soup. oh, how much i miss that. but i miss popo even more. haven't been visiting her. :( & now, i feel like i'm gonna fall sick anytime soon. feeling cold on the outside & hot inside. &&& (i know rather random for now) but i really miss korea's everland & lotte world. how i wish i am there now. i need the super fast eagle roller coaster & the 180 degrees viking ship. that will be damn shiokkkkkkkk. ok, shall get back to frontpage asap.

totally not my day.

2009-02-28T19:19:00.002+09:00

i'm fucking pissed now, cox the whole house is fucking stuffy, there isn't anything nice to eat at home, my stomach is feeling not well, my laptop keyboard must go haywire at this time, i cannot install the fucking frontpage thing into my com, & the list goes on.

last but not least, you disgust me. & i fucking hate you.

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i don know why, but my heart hurts like fuck now. how i wish i'm on the plane now, flying off to somewhere. forget abt it, i'll just stay strong for now.

update now, tiffy. (:

2009-02-26T21:57:00.005+09:00

i skipped my jogging routines these few days, cox i was too lazy & the cold weather was rather nice to sleep in. moreover, i'm really tired. so just now when i was all ready to go for a jog, it must rain. how nice. so i went back home again & had my dinner instead. haven't been eating really well these few days. bcox i don know what to eat plus my appetite wasn't very good and can only fit in one meal per day. so it's somehow a good sign, bcos i wont put on unnecessary weight even if i skip jogging. hahahahaha. massive update now, since my night is kinda bored.

i know, i'm prolly the last one to do an update for cny. but it's better late than never yea. so for the whole two weeks, it was visiting,gambling & eating. even the youngest cousin i have sit ard to gamble. ha! & every weekend was visiting diff dim sum restaurant with the family!(my favourite!ha.)& now i'm missing all the har gao & siew mai. plus i really love the steam chicken feet! i can never get enough of that!

so every year, it's a trend that my family & my god-family will have a lunch date on the second day of cny! this year, we decided to have a change of place & went to some clubhouse for dim sum instead of the usual dragon gate restaurant. the food there was not that bad, but still i prefer old hongkong or crystal jade! & my god-ma have always been a very loving and supporting lady to me , i really feel appreciated for all the love & care she showered on me throughout these years. (:

it was never-ending good food, gambling, yada yada for the rest of the days. & one thing for sure, i'll end up gambling the night away either with my cousins or my aunts! & now, i'm starting to miss those goodies, gamblings, gatherings & my cousin's high-pitched "banluck"! haha.

so it was valentine's day two weeks back. i spent this day with my family instead of a valentine. so we had family dinner at a restaurant in haw par villa! this time it's my uncle's treat cox he strike lottery just the week after my dad striked! the food there was alright only, & the service sucks, like totally. they take like four hours to serve a eight-course dinner? all of us became kinda restless while waiting. so my cousins & me walked like many rounds through the museum they had in the restuarant! mum spotted her granny's kitchen along the way. ha.

hit the club with my cousins & his friends after dinns. intial plan was zouk/phuture, but bcox of some event, phuture was full house & we couldn't get in . so we changed plans & went dbl o instead. this time round, i drank more. from redbull vodka > ribena vodka > snowball > choya martini. the choya martini was way too sour, & i kinda miss ribena vodka now, since ribena is my favourite childhood drink. as usual, the company was great for the night! but , the dancefloor is fucking crowded/stuffy,& we can't stop sweating. plus the music wasn't that nice either. so within two hours, we decided to go for supper instead. cabbed home after supper & i KO-ed right after my bath.

& last sat was chilling-out session with love after her first paper! though it's a short meet-up, i enjoyed every jokes we cracked & the sharing sessions with each other. (: i hope the goodies did help her de-stress, at least a little? ha. so after dinner & a little shopping, we ended up at starbucks for a drink & more chats. we seems to choose the wrong drink like always whenever we are there, cox our drink will end up not very nice.& that day was kinda sinful cox we brought home two pints of ice-cream each. ha. but the summer berries & cream is really nice thou it's too sweet for me. (less than half a tub left now. :( ) &&&&&& i can't wait to meet up tmr! love, remember what you promise me huh. hope my whinings wont hurt your ears. :P

i bought this snack today cox i feel like eating it. but now, the craving is not there alr. lol. but trust me, it taste really good with chilli sauce. alright, this is indeed a very long post. shall stop now cox it's time for some cucumber mask. & i need to peeeee.

p/s. another picture post will be up again, very soon.

hungryyyyy.

2009-02-26T09:08:00.001+09:00

m in school now, and my stomach is growling non-stop. what should i eat for breakfast later? hmm, hotcakes or? so i'm in the com lab now,& as usual i'm totally distracted from my assignments. i must get down to serious job soon. no more slacking sessions manz. i have so many things to blog about, but... laziness had gotten over me. so two weeks later, i'm like free forever. can't believe i graduate already.......................... ah. so should i apply to be a animal keeper in the zoo?

the love-hate feeling towards you.

2009-02-25T22:36:00.001+09:00

blueberry vodka for the night..... but it didn't seems to help at all. i wanna club so much now, i wanna booze so much now, i wanna have a hardcore clubbing night to ease everything that's feeling so pain & numb in me. i don know why i can feel this way even though i know everything is impossible. do you really have such a great impact on me? i don want fate to play with me anymore. fuck fate. i wanna let go, but i can't bear to... and i can't for now.. sigh, why like that.. love, i wanna lie on your shoulder on fri. :(

brain freeze.

2009-02-23T21:19:00.002+09:00

I'm very hungry now but i don know what to eat. I don have any cravings, nor any idea what i should eat. I only ate the stupid fried mee just now. Even the haagen daaaaaz ice-cream in the freezer don't tempt me. Ah, tell me, what should i eat? Guess I should just blast music, & doze off on the bed. But my fucking mp3 went faulty again & my stomach is crooooooooooking like hell.

emo emo emo emo emo emo emo la.

oh my C...

2009-02-16T16:07:00.000+09:00

i choose to drown myself in lies.

yes, m silly, stupid and dumb.

i know you aint worth it, totally aint worth it.

but can i really stop the trigger,

& control it with my bare hands?

i doubt so, cox i'm locked down for now.

& i don't deny, i still looked out of the small window.

i still care, my heart still hurts.

i'll still try to get out, i hope i can.

happy vday!

2009-02-14T14:48:00.004+09:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

love's in the air today.

but the good thing about being single is......
i can still go gogo-gaga over beach boys by the beach. haha! (:

& i love tanned guys like louis koo.

古惑仔 rawkz \m/ don't they?

bring me out tonight..

2009-02-13T17:32:00.000+09:00

gave school a miss today, again. cox i seriously don feel like going to sch with a toothache. went to get mc, & napped for a few hours since i didn't really manage to get a good rest for the past few days. so now, i'm stucked onto the tv. but there's nothing nice to watch, & i'm getting bored at home. i want to get my ass out!! but where to go? & who's free for me? i want to club! or maybe a midnight movie will do. sigh. bored bored bored. i wanna booze leh. i kinda miss mahjong, but......... sigh, enough of complaining. should i jog today? yes? no? someone ask me out pleaseeeeeeeeee.

damn the wisdom tooth!

2009-02-12T12:40:00.000+09:00

my lower stretch of teeth is in great pain now. :( i don know what causes this but i suspect it's the growth of my wisdom tooth. oh well, why this problem hit me so early. i thought the wisdom tooth will only grow at a later age? so now, i can't really eat in peace & take salty/sweet stuffs as and when i like. but still, i heck everything & eat. that's why i'm in pain now. awwww. & now, i'm at home watching tv cox i overslept & m too lazy to turn up in school. but, i'm a harrrpy girl still cox i get to eat mac hotcakes for breakfast just now! it's thurs today! means weekends is near! i'm thinking of trimming/dyeing/highlighting my hair during the weekends. shall take a rest now before it's time for facial. till then, mr teeth, please get well soon.

2009-02-11T02:58:00.000+09:00

She said, " Can't help but wait,"

The grass is always greener on the other side. How true is this? I see you living a good life, you see me living a better life. Well, human is never contented with whatever things they have. It's three now. I'm very tired, but i can't get to bed. That's bad. i shall stop killing my brain cells now & cuddle my bolster.

a food-ful weekend.

2009-02-10T22:29:00.002+09:00

it was a fabolous friday with vonvon! she came over to my crib first & bought me my fav cny snack!(: ha! had our dinns at crystal jade, & we're like chatting non-stop, sharing stuffs & what not. i know she won't forsake me forever, cos i won't either. (: ha. wanted to shop but i don know why those shops closed exceptionally early on that day. & we are like "huh?" so we ended up at starbucks, having drinks & surfing the net on von's lappy. manage to catch the last train home, & now, i'm missing fridays like this. :(

........

sat was lunch over at some dim sum restaurant, & went visiting over at my aunt's place. gambled, eat ( like again!) & i love the mee siam my uncle cook. ha! stayed over at reb's house for the night.

on sunday, daddykins gave a treat to the gum's family cox he strike 4D two weeks ago! we went for buffet at zhou's kitchen. well, i can't say the food is very nice, but at least, it's so much better than sakura! & everyone leave the restaurant with a big bloated stomach. (: mahjong with my aunt, barry & sam after dinner. i lose abit, sigh, no luck la. :(

........

so today was a free off-day from school. how i wish, everyday's like this. at least, i don have to wake up early & travel to the boring school. went jogging today & i sweat alot! so jogging in drizzles isn't a bad thing afterall. alright, shall look for something to do now to kill the boring night.

2009-02-07T21:00:00.000+09:00

tell me, why things happen this way?

tiffany, wake up, wake up & wake up.

what the fuck manz.

i sit here, & know almost nothing

2009-02-03T22:01:00.000+09:00

so much so i wanted to blog a post with pictures, i don have the mood to. i feel like i'm walking like a dead corpse everyday. so what if there's a smile? so what if you know that looking on the bright side will bring you better light? sometimes, things don come by easy. the hard & cruel fact that hit you down hard, & leaving you all alone to stand. the determination, the faith i continue to have, the tineeee hope that i hold on, isn't easy to come. that took me days, weeks, months to build. but still, i find it so hard to face it. guess i only have myself to blame. let me say it for once, i hate my life now.

so true....

2009-02-02T16:01:00.000+09:00

the more you hope for something,
the more you wouldn't get it.
the best thing in the world will only appear when you least expect, like always.
i have everything i wanted,
but i don have everything that i need.

.........

oh my, i miss vonvon! i really hate it when we move separate ways after secondary school. cox, that's when we start spending lesser time with each other. but i know we wont forget each other despite the busy schedules. ha! but i still demand a meet-up before you start your CTs battle!

alright, i miss the loud r&b music. my social life is dying. bring me out please.

enlighten me please.

2009-01-25T13:55:00.001+09:00

i just finish packing my room & i'm god damn tired now. i love CNY, but i hate spring cleaning. far too much things to pack, moreover, i'm a lazy pig. luckily, i get over and done with it fast. how i wish my folks would buy me a robot maid. haha!

........

i hate the emotional side of me. i hate being so tied down by emotions that i can't even find myself. why can't i simply be not doubtful over the slightest thing? i'm scaring the guys away & this is kinda ______ (alright, fill in the blank) . can someone enlighten me please?

i would be elated if i receive a text saying............ or perhaps, something nice. from someone true.

question mark (?) day

2009-01-21T13:48:00.002+09:00

my day is filled with many question marks. i can't understand a single bit of VLOOKUP & HLOOKUP. wth is all these manz. i don wanna listen either cox the teacher is driving some kind of ferrari and i couldn't catch up at all.

the weather have been pretty windy & i kinda hate it. cox i don sweat as much. & this is not good. i love the feeling when you can really sweat from head to toe, thou it's untidy. but who cares yea? can someone tell me why i don sweat as much thou i jog the same distance? does this means i have to jog a longer distance? i'm considering if i should change my jogging route. but i'm so used to the old jogging route for the past one year. :( the route from cck to bukit gombak seems challenging, but me scared the forest along the track. later got bangalah jump out how?
aye, can't wait for 2pm cox it's getting my ass out of school time!

when the night gets colder;

2009-01-18T23:32:00.000+09:00

i'm feeling pretty down now, but i don know why.
seriously, there shouldn't be anything that's bugging me.
&& i crave for mac strawberry sundae now.
perhaps, that will make me smile for the night.
should i get my ass down to mac now?

when the lazy blood flows

2009-01-14T02:10:00.000+09:00

it's 2 now, & i'm still not asleep. sissy came back a few days ago & it feels so great to have her back in the crib! supper khaki is back already. hahahahaha! i've so much to blog, (love's birthday, korea trip.... ) but i'm just too lazy to start blogging. life have been pretty mundane. oh my, i should stop complaining. can't wait for CNY to come! more mahjong, hongbaos! what's enjoyable is the many family/friend's gatherings! &&&& tmr's the second last day for the sale of agnes b over at town,isetan!(ah, my favourite brand!) i'm so tempted to drop by. up to 80% discount.... awwwww.. guess only if time permits. alright, shall hit the sack soon.

nights world.

my best friend's birthday!

2009-01-08T00:02:00.005+09:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY LITTLE
MISS VONVON!

xxxxxxxx

my dear love,

hope you like the collage i did specially for you. (: may all your wishes come true & may you enjoy this special day to the fullest with your loved ones!be blessed with good health always & success in your studies too!

you've been the sweetest friend in my life. counting back to now, we have been friends for a good four years. we started became closer when both of us were really out of love. keeping each other company, going for pepper lunch, waffle at gelare, jap food at shokudo, movies,sitting down & pouring sorrows out to each other at marina bay, sun-tanning sessions, stayovers, xmas lunch at jack's place, retail therapy tgt, acting auntie tgt, zhi char near my house & many more stuffs that seems to be uncountable! haha. you were beside me when guys break my heart, & me crying my heart out, repeating & asking you the same questions and of course being so patient & consolling over everything. m always so touched with your small little acts! ( buying sour sweet tape for me & travelling to my house despite the long bus ride & distance! & those encouraging texts from you!) &&&& your lame jokes never fail to impress me! haha. me misses you like crazy ever since the last time we met! & yes, today's your 19th! i'll make it a blasting one for you on sunday! haha. you're definitely a special gem in my life. (: m always super thankful to have a friend like you. you rock love! \m/ ( now, it's time for you to shed tears of happiness! haha.)

with tons of hugs & kisses,
tiffy. (((((:

my halfed-open pair of eyes.

2009-01-07T12:52:00.000+09:00

oh gawd, i can't seems to keep my eyes open. i'm fucking tired now. i had only one hour sleeep last night. many thoughts ran through my mind & i kinda broke down. thank god, i'm only one hour away to leave the school. anyhow, it feels so good to get back on track, jogging is still my favourite hobby. random post i would say. give me a kit-kat, give me a break.

a brand new year.

2009-01-02T21:39:00.000+09:00

so new year eve was spent roaming around the streets with friends, & dbl o with sam, barry & their friends. that night, dbl o music sucks & it didn't get any better. went down to obar, the music was slightly better (but still sucks!) barcadi lime & redbull vodka for the night. sadly, didn't get to hit the dancefloor for long cox i only get to reach dbl at ard 2am. but still, sam & barry's company made my night so much better. (: bak kut teh before heading home. & somehow i miss clubbing now. the blasting music & what not. but home isn't that bad either. at least, my bed is with me. haha.

p/s is my expectations going too high or there's simply a problem?

the last day of a not so good-bad year.

2008-12-31T16:38:00.000+09:00

Annyong Haseyo! m back from korea a few days back. The weather was shiok, but it's a little too much to bear. The lowest it can go is -15. Tell me, how can i not wrap like a bazhang. So everyday was saying no to air-con, but yes to the warm heater. Haha. Overall, it's a different experience. & i finally seen,touch and feel snow! The sight of snow falling down was way too beautiful. I love to touch the cotton-wool snow, it's so soft & easy to make a snowball. & skiing was fun! thou i fall & hit my bum once. alright, i'm too lazy to blog out every details. maybe i'll do that in next few days.

so today is the last day of 2008. honestly speaking, i can't be bothered to do a reflection of what really happened this year. no resolutions & no wish-list. well, i aint a greedy kid. all i want is my family and friends to stay by me (just like always. (:). yeap, that's all.

Happy 2009 to all! enjoy this special holiday.